kiri luar..

kiri luar?

translate it into english babe..



being left out.. is not a good feeling.. for example.. whenever people talking and u dont get it.. and then nobody to explain it to u when u really2 want to understand it.. thats people.. is left out..

if my colleague did it to me.. i feel like 'shesh!!' and i can forget bout it in blinks.. but if it is done by close person? it really sucks.. when i ask.. and sort of begging to know.. and the person dont even bother to share.. i automatically categorized into 'muke tembok' person..

and the feeling so.. Wow!


like shit..







i want to say.. 'i dont want to know..' and 'i dont care..'



but can i?




could i?








no.. cuz sometimes.. im such a nosy bitch.. so live with it..




but if u really insist for me to take care of my own self and my own matters.. well.. ur wish is my command.. but u really not going to like it when i start ignoring and neglecting u..

dua purnama

yep!

its been 2 months already! yeay!! to me n mr. Hubby!
two months macam baru kan? tp byk bende dah jadi..

as for example.. semalam kami together2 pegi beli pregnancy test kit..
ekeke~!

dah 2 minggu period tidak kunjung tiba.. so aku dah suspect macam2 la.. yela.. awak tu dh kawen.. pastu period tak dtg.. ape lagi kan?

sampai2 je umah.. terus buat test..




negative..




nak kate sedih sgt tu takde lah.. nk kate gumbira pon takde.. just biase2 je.. memule aku mmg cam takmo ade baby lagi kan.. yelah.. nk berdua dulu.. nk honeymoon2 dulu kan.. nk tunggu stabil sikit.. even Mr. Hubby ok with it.. tp lepas tgk cite 'Knocked Up' aku terase nk ada baby..

mase tgk actress tu meneran.. pastu baby tu berjaya kuar.. air mata ni mengalir2 tanpa diminta2.. naluri keibuan tu mmg wujud di hati perempuan.. tak kisah la boy-ish mane pon perempuan tu kan?

so ape kene ngan period aku ni? and.. ape kene ngan perut aku yg dh kedepan nih?? hmm.. kalau pregnant tu bleh gak la diterima yg aku ni dh berisi.. ni tak mengandung? then ape?



lemak la weh!!!!!!! lagi mau tanye ke?





aku nk turunkan berat badan ke tahap ideal before pegi ke perhentian island.. but Mr Hubby ckp.. 'i give u 10 months utk turunkan 10kgs.. ' hoho.. lineant nyer..

u plak kene gain 10 kgs in 10 months ok? by the way.. tahap ideal aku ialah 15kg less.. gile betol~





mmg gile!




cubajaya lah eh.. ape2 kene cuba!




and usaha!

so.. pagi sabtu ni.. kalau tak ke cerakah.. kami ke permaisuri.. or.. maybe kat track tmn cuepacs!
kalau Mr. Hubby bg 1001 alasan.. siap die aku joggingkan!

'Happy 2nd Monthesary of our wedding to my dear Mr Hubby'

p/s : love u so much bb! sorry for what i did that make ur heart hurt.. and i also forgive u for what u did to make my heart hurt.. we start fresh k!

mood swinger

lately.. aku mmg mengalami mood swing! mood yg kejap swing ke kiri.. kejap ke kanan.. aduyai! yang jadi mangsa? tentu sekali insan yg terlalu dekat di hati.. yak ni.. Mr. Hubby.. memule die layankan aje mood aku yg swinging.. tp semalam.. sabar die dah tak tertahan lagi..

die diam je.. die terase sgt.. huwa! aku tak tahu yg mood aku ni mempengaruhi perasaan die.. tp come on la kan? kalau die buat kat aku camtu.. aku rase aku lagi over.. tp bile die dah merajuk2 pon aku masih mood ke kiri.. huhu..

aku sebenarnye mmg tak suke camtu.. sape suke tgk org yg plg disayangi sakit hati sebab kite? huhu.. then lepas peluk2 jap.. nangis ape yg ptt.. aku makan panadol.. tido.. supaya aku tak sakitkan hati die lagi.. uhu.. sgt sedih ok.. sangat2sedih.. tp rerupe.. mood kekiri aku bukan berenti takat tu aje.. gile la mood aku ni.. malam tu aku panas je.. apesal? aku pun tatau..

bile Mr. Hubby tanye.. aku jawab tatau aje.. nak salahkan period.. aku dah lewat seminggu dah ni.. mmg menggunung gunung hormon dlm badan acik.. huhu!

pagi tadi dh mintak ampun n maaf.. and die kate.. jgn layankan sgt mood tu.. and he will try to understand.. huhu.. kesian die.. kan?



p/s : Happy Birthday to Puan Syarifah Nurfadhillah Syed AB Rahaman!! muga hidup diberkati.. dan senantiasa berbahagia disamping suami dan keluarga tercinta!

enough-LAH!

i didnt quite understand.. why must she need to bugs on her ex? i mean.. u already married kan? so? why? he also married..

yeah.. i know its a general question which u asked.. or smsed.. but.. you r his ex! i just cant tolerate.. if u think u saw him somewhere.. let him be! why must u terhegeh2 nk sms2 tanye.. is that him? last time u smsed.. telling that u have miscarried..

u r his ex!!!

if u r his general fren.. i dunt care much..




sebab manusia ni..
kalau dikunjung sumber kenangan lame..
mesti teringat2..




which i hate!



he neednt all of that! he with me now..
so.. please understand that his wife didnt like it!





p/s : she will not sms him anymore.. i will make sure..

my ordinary sunday!

i kinda hate it... when i starts to stutter.. i mean.. its not that i 'kinda' hate.. i TRULY hate!! urgh! i cant said anything smooth nowadays.. im always stuttering.. why?

i hate when i cant say what is it in my mind.. but the fact is.. it is actually IN my mind.. as if i have no word for it.. or i cant make it into a sentence.. am i getting stupid?

as if i have to take a breathe.. then think for 1-2 minutes for arranging the words.. and arrange the sentence also.. im not talking about english here.. im talking about bahasa melayu! demmit!

whats wrong with me.. when im at office.. thankfully it is not that obvious of my stutter.. but at home.. when im talking with hubby.. i have stuttering as my major prob.. beside cooking nicely.. it will then lead to next prob when i feel so sengal.. then i will increase my volume.. and it will sound like im angry with him.. but im not.. am just angry with myself.. sebab tak dpt nk sebut kentang.. padahal bentuk kentang tu dah jelas2 dlm otak!!!!


why?


skrg aku ada kat Ampcorp.. baru je sampai terus lepak kedai pakcik ni.. nk lepak kat meja.. tp kinda cam mengganggu gugat org nk berniaga.. so.. lepak sini sudey.. sambil ditemani milo ais and fries (yg bangla ni tak paham2.. fries pon tak tau??!)

lately boleh dikatakan aku tak sabar menunggu weekend.. bile isnin aje.. aku menunggu bile nk weekend.. tp bile dah weekend.. boring plak tatau nk watpe.. so ape yg aku cari actually? mungkin aku mencari hari di mana aku membuat sesuatu yg memberi aku rase happy! kerja happy ke?

kalau dh dinamakan kerja.. mane nk happy kan? heheh.. tp kerja tu yg memberi kegumbiraan di hujung bulan.. ehehhe! dan 30 hari selepas itu.. maka aku rase skrg aku kene appreciate kerja aku skrg.. actually.. aku sgt menyukai kerja ku skrg.. seperti kerja yg aku idamkan.. environmental engineer bukan kerja yg susah macam mechanical or chemical or civil engineer.. hmm.. kene selalu stick or glue that to my mind..



aku skrg terpikir2.. ada apa dgn hiburan? sampai org2 kat area kejiranan aku selalu membisingkan diri dgn lagu2 yg menyiat telinga.. pastu dgr sessi karaoke yg sgt2 menyakitkan otak! kalau sedap tu aku bleh consider.. tapi! masalahnye.. dah la lagu classic cina.. (masalah pemahaman) pastu tgh2 malam.. aku tak bleh terima!! pencemaran bunyi.. bunyi yg sedap pon.. kalau lame2 pasang.. muntah gak weh!!!! dah jadi pencemaran bunyi ni!

sebagai satu contoh.. meja belakang aku ni.. mengilai macam kuntilanak! aku dah macam nk pecah gegendang.. kalau aku tak cover tadi.. mau berdarah weh!!! pastu area sini.. kedai CD tu pasang lagu gile2 macam nk halau org tak bg masuk kedai ke?

aduss.. ape nk jadi? takleh ke cool2.. senyap2? nk bingit2 pegi disco lah! ke aku yg ptt pegi ke tempat sunyi? ahahhaa!


aku selalu nk blog.. selalu bukak blog.. click 'new post' tapi.. idea hilang! bile dlm kete.. idea aku mmg mencurah2.. yelah.. based on what i see kan.. tp bile dh sampai opis.. telah ditapis ngan idea2 kerja.. puuh!! hilang~


haha.. tp bile aku dah depan laptop.. sambil mengusha org ramai.. makanya.. idea yg dtg terus ditaip.. (minachi belakang ni gelak lagi!!! berdarah telinga aku!!) huhu!


kul 5lebih aku chow la.. aku nk usha news and pastu nk usha facebook.. pastu aku nk jumpe encik cinta hatiku.. ehehe.. td pagi actually aku dah sampai ampcorp.. tp just drop by Mr Hubby.. then aku balik umah balik.. kemas2 umah.. sambil ditemani Michael Bubble :P

then masak nasik lemak.. tapau.. aku mandi.. siap2.. lepas tgk nona.. aku chancalo! ehehe.. pas bg Mr Hubby tapauwan aku.. aku ke sini la.. nk blog :P


dah jadi cam routine aku bile teman die kat sini :P



okla.. fries aku yg sememangnye sejuk ni dh bertambah2 sejuk.. aku nk santap sambil baca news.. then adios!




p/s : milo ais.. here i come!

perut kental kami!

sleepy..

dah pekena nescafe O pon masih ngantuk? ni dah tahap tepu nih.. oxygen mmg tak sampai ke otak! adakah terlampau byk lemak dlm pembuluh darah yg menapis oxygen? argh!

dulu tiap2 hari.. ada 2 time aku rase kurang bersemangat.. first mase betul2 br bgn pagi.. yelah.. sebab rase malas betol nk bgn mandi n pegi keje.. second mase lepas bfast kat office bile dh duduk kat my desk.. ergh! malas tol tgk pc n nk wat keje..

tp skrg.. bgn pagi2 aku bersemangat nk memasak breakfast utk hubby :) eventho tak dpt makan same2.. janji aku ade prepare something utk die dah buat aku rase selesa.. ekeke! bak pesanan akk opis aku.. 'panaskan air.. buatkan 3-in-1 pon dh cukup nisa..' ehehe..

tp so far.. alhamdulillah.. sekali je miss buat bfast utk die (preheat left over dinner semalam) hehe.. tgh hari mintak maaf la bang eh.. saye keje.. die pon keje.. so makan at luar je.. mlm aku masak la.. tipa ptg mase drive balik.. jenuh pikir nk masak ape.. huwa huwa!

ok la.. aku nk sambung wat keje yg mencabar ni.. da..



p/s : malam ni nk masak telur bistik n preheat dal yg acik buat dulu :P nasib perut die mmg kental!

one year of muchi buchi!

Hey! its the our first year!

in 4th Jan 2009.. we declared our love.. thru thick n thin (lovin this phrase!) we've made it! getting married is only the phase (which im so grateful of) however.. knowing and loving each other before married is the real thing.. therefore.. on 4th Jan 2010 (which is today) we hope that our love will grow and grow.. trust will deepen.. (not thrust.. haha!) and passion will go on.. forever for us..




to my Dearest Mr Hubby..

i love u with all my heart.. and thanks for the surprise last night.. im so sorry i didnt remember it.. but u're there to 'knock' my 'head' and say.. 'sayang.. happy anniversary!' ahaha!!




p/s : never been happier.. :)

nothing compares to u

mase tgk cite 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall' td.. aku malas nk bgn utk stop the dvd player.. biarkan die main sampai abish.. dgr plak lagu nih.. tp die in hawaiian language la.. puas godek cr lagu ni.. aku jumpe in English.. but i kinda like in hawaiian tu.. nice!

layan k.. eventho first phrase cam takde kene mengena ngan aku.. tp lagu ni besh.. nnt kalau aku jumpe lagu lagu2 yg jiweng2.. aku embed k..


p/s : boringnye bile takde Mr Hubby around.. huu..