a day before new year..

hey.. lagi bape jam je nak masuk tahun baru.. hehehe.. excited? of coz!

ari tu ajak daud konon² nk sambut new year.. die tak bleh.. ajak mart.. die keje.. ALASAN! hahahaha! ala.. yer la.. nak mulakan tahun baru terpaksa tgk muke aku.. cam ape plak kan? tak menarik.. huhuu.. im so just kidding ok korg²! so malam ni.. aku either lepak umah ila or lepak umah aku sambil tutup telinga takmo dgr fireworks.. huhuhu.. tahape2 je..

last 364 days been so much to me.. ade ok ade tak ok.. nak aku list ke? cam poyo plak kan? so.. korg tgk archieve blog aku suda.. menceritakan ttg semua mende yg terjadi di thn 2008 ini..

tp yg plg aku suke about 2008 ialah.. aku dpt keje baru.. n keje idaman la boleh dikatekan.. pastu.. aku dpt jugak beli kereta.. hoho.. beli kereta tu aku bajet jd azam thn 2010.. terawal plak.. syukur².. pastu baby Aiddil lahir! i love u memememah!!

pastu yg aku ske lagi.. aku get to know some new frenz yg mmg cool.. haha.. understanding n sgt gila².. and pastu aku n other old frenz semakin close.. n semakin best!

this year also is a year where most of my best buddy menamatkan zaman bujeng treng teng teng.. hehe.. tunang ke kawen ke... closest buddy baru tunang² la.. next year plak aku kompom byk makan nasik minyak free.. eeheheh..

im so happy la..

unfortunately.. dalam happy² ade yg sedih.. Amran kembali ke rahmatullah.. thats the most touching moment la.. nangis non stop.. depressed sampai skrg kot.. he's been a good fren of mine.. and i will miss him for a long long long long long long time..

tah la.. tu je la kot yg plg sedih bg aku.. bar none..





owh ade lagi.. pasal ael.. hurm.. no comment beb..


owh owh.. kete aku kene pecah.. damn! pastu? kembali pada yg happy la.. i dpt 300 bearbrick!!! haha.. tak abes²? tah la.. hujung² thn 2008 aku sgt happy :) takpe.. we'll try to make 2009 a better year okay!






p/s : lagi 14 days.. then my life will be much² happier!

p/s : i love u all with all my heart my frens!


bye 2008..

leya?

tak sangka.. barang yg aku ingat jatuh dr atas times square rerupenye org.. uiyoo.. pelik betol aku tgk nape ramai sgt org pandang ke bawah.. ade org jatuh.. yikes!!

aku lupe nk mention something important pasal semalam aaa..


aku berjaya buat seorg lelaki menitiskan air mata.. hahahaha!!


amik.. i betol2 blog okay! nak i letak gamba u lap air mata ke? nak ke? nak ke? ahahha.. tp mmg sgt lawak la.. aiseh.. rindu la kat kamu encik abg besar!

nak upload gamba bearbrick 300 (grr..) tp.. masih tak kesampaian.. dalam ertikata lain.. malas nak mampos..

hurm..


aku rase lega! setelah bercerita a to z to sue.. aku rase.. relieved! i know i can count on her.. she gave me bright ideas.. she's the most genius person in my life now.. boo boo to jimmy neutron.. boo.. piang! (bunyik jimbo kene tendang) piang? ek ele.. bunyik cam nyamuk rempit je..

aku rase aku kene stop.. esok nk jumpe big bos.. td tak jumpe lagi sebab i malu2 cipan.. dlm erti kata lain.. keje tak setel lagi.. woho! so pospon esok la..

hurm..

tadi mengusha kasut converse.. huhu.. i like! nnt nk gi try n test..

mane satu? ikutkan hati.. nak dua2.. hehe..

p/s : another 15 days to go.. dem!

outer glowing.. inner glooming..

hoho..

td kuar henjoy2 ngan big bro :) sangat menarik okay! haha.. i like! leh wat lagi yer.. pegi times square utk tgk cite 'bedtime stories' hurm.. dalam 10 bintang.. i bg 6.5 je.. sikit? bukan ke tu cite adam sandler? huhu.. sebab adam tak se'adam' yg boleh.. tak kelakar cam die dlm cite '50 first dates' which aku sgt terbahak2 okay!

pastu konon2 nak melahap Big Mac.. tp hampa.. so lepak la kat food court.. makan2 n borak2.. kene tuduh nk korek rahsia.. huhuhu.. kijam kamu big bro!! pastu makan eskrem plak.. gile byk makan? blom kire makanan yg konon2 nak dimakan tu.. haiyoh.. by the way.. thanx for the 300 bearbrick! i love it!!

pastu balik sebelum malam.. tetibe terpikir plak.. esok keje.. aiyaiyai!

esok mulalah balik realiti kehidupan.. kerja kerja.. nk jumpe big bos lagi.. setelkan masalah yg aku harap akan setel.. tolong lah setel wohoi!! tak larat dah asik nk kene repeat the correction! cam nk give up plak saye! requirement in ur TOR tidak sama nilai ciput yg kamu bayar laa.. eskusmi!

huhu..




p/s : 16 days to go.. please make it sooner! i just cant wait anymore!

people & perfectness

hari ni.. hari yg aku rase sangap.. aku bangun awal gile.. online.. buat ape yg ptt.. pastu tido balik.. ni dh bgn ni.. dh mandi.. tatau nk wat ape.. maybe aku ptt gi jalan2?

terase nk pg sg wang.. tp.. esok nk pg sane gak..

jap2.. nak try tanye daud.. die free ke tak.. kalu free.. bleh ar kuar.. aku dah sangap.. n aku perlu utk bergelak ketawa..

pagi tadi ade satu emotional nyer chatting.. hurm.. aku tak berapa nk paham.. tp paham la sket2.. hurm.. sorry for everything.. im not perfect big bro.. hahaha.. dem!

aku sgt tak sabar utk hangout gile2 pada 1st Jan nnt.. and pastu.. aku tak sabar utk tunggu 'kau' balik beb!!

okla.. aku rase.. aku dah sikit lagi nk sewel..



hahaha!

masa tambahan :

daud bz.. dem! anybody nak meneman acik yg tgh sangap ni tak?? tadi disebabkan bocan gile.. acik gi potong gambut.. buat fringe which i felt so silly!!! muke aku tak sesuai buat fringe la sengal!

then terpaksa ah aku wat muke gedik ok..

dan terpaksa gak amik dlm keadaan yg suram muram.. supaya kehodohan itu tertapis.. huhuk! dem! esok nk hangout.. dem dem!!

aku rase ade bende berat kat belakang aku.. satu bebanan maha kuat.. i hope i am as strong!





dont give up! stay alive!

people & mistakes

hurm..

im so sorry for what he been thru..

so tragic..

just come here..

i'll protect u..

but he had no option..

face it..

be strong..

i will be here..

dont worry..

u can rely on me..





p/s : ppl make mistakes.. as if u never did it?

p/s : please end this misery onto him!

bile org sengal dah sangap..

aha..

hello hello everybody!! aszda dah tunang.. ting ting ting!!

canang jgn tak canang!!



so after pg majlis tunang aszda.. aku terus rush rush to mines.. first tempat aku tuju is.. Kedai OPTICAL.. and tada!!!

my new specky!

i know i know.. same cam yg dulu nyer.. tp dgn jenis camni je aku rase aku sesuai.. aku ade half frame.. tp sgt buruk ok bile aku pakai.. cam nenek nenek si bongkok tua..

lepas kaw tim pasal spec.. jumpe plak aza n razi.. gamba dorg tgh makan Mr Teppanyaki takleh upload.. sebab card dlm camera aku baru disahkan ade jangkitan virus chikugunya! brengsek!

and aku sgt makan byk OK!!

pas makan kenduri.. aku pi makan kat Teppanyaki.. pastu.. balik tu.. lepak kat Ayza.. mak oi! mentang2 resolution thn depan is strictly hanya untuk fokus kuruskan badan.. so sebelum 2009.. better aku melahap.. wakakka! buruknye perangai kamu!

bile lepak Ayza.. teringat kat arwah.. itulah tempat first kitorg lepak.. makan rojak ayam.. die belanja.. haha.. hurm.. tadi pon makan rojak ayam gak..

tadi mase on the way from Mines to Ayza.. zatul tanye.. 'ko depressed ke?' aku jawab.. aaaaa.. tak.. haha.. aku mungkin depressed sket la awal2.. skrg.. aku serabut.. byk mende dlm otak.. byk org to consider.. byk hati nak dijaga.. which is ok to me.. tp aku cume ckp jujur.. aku mmg tgh serabut.. kepala otak aku dah nak sampai limit.. huhuhu..

td aku beli baju.. tp pjg sgt.. aha.. maybe aku ptt potong supaya lebih sexay!

bengong nate!


p/s : i like it too zatul.. but i really need permanent hair removal..

p/s : kerinduan tanpa batasan..




sila tampar aku laju2 supaya aku sedar!!!!

hollow

today..
sgt panas..
aircond kat opis tak berfungsi..
yadei..
YADEI!

hurm..
aku rase berbelah bahagi..
rase takut and tak mengerti..
nak percaya ke tak?
nak lupakan ke tak?

tp aku tanak lupakan kot..
segala memory dan segala harapan..
segala kenangan..
tanak..
TANAK!

rindunye aku..
bahu aku tak sakit..
leher aku tak sengal..
cume dada rase tak puas bernafas..
rase macam ade something menghalang..

rase nk menangis yg tak terkeluar..
rase rindu yg tak terbalas..
rase sayang yg terbiar..

damn!


aku rase diri aku tak punya perasaan lagi..
sehingga die kembali..


p/s : i miss u damn it!

mari layan telinga.. aw aw..

a fren of mine share something.. this.. check it out..



Artist : Karen Ann
Title : By The Cathedral

im lovin it.. my type of song yg dilayan.. yep.. nice nice..

last night.. at 9pm.. chow pegi umah sue.. lepak.. borak2.. gelak2.. sgt hepi n relieved.. pastu dlm kol 12 lebih asfa datang plak.. pastu pas borak2 n gelak2 lagi.. kitorg gi kajang.. makan baek punye.. hahaha..

asfa esok pegi Bali.. jeles.. chipah plak dlm diam2 gi jumpe faiz kat germany.. im so happy for those yg tgh happy!!

esok keje.. ergh.. tp yg best.. esok juge saye gaji.. n next monday.. CUTI! how yeah!

tapi keje cam banyak aje? oh-ow!

damn..




p/s : selamat hari natal kepada yg menyambutnya

p/s : encik skandel.. cepat lah pulang ke pangkuan acik..

am i not grateful?

losing a dear friend gave me something to think about.. i usually said to others that people come and go.. but when i face the situation myself.. i found myself being so weak n vulnerable.. i keep on thinking..

'he really gone?'

'i wont see the smile again?'

'was this a prank?'

im being silly.. i know he's gone.. he wont be back again.. but i had hard time to believe it.. every time im with my other friends.. i feel like.. im ok.. im going to be ok.. but when there all left.. im back to that wondering spot..

this is the hardest thing for me to face bar none.. in fact.. the cancellation of my engagement n my break up.. this is much² harder to swallow.. aku terkilan sebab tak jumpe die.. aku sgt terkilan.. padahal.. aku nk jumpe die sgt²..

hurm.. and to ael.. ahha.. thats another thing.. i dragged him into lembah maut.. argh! all my fault! i hate myself for treating pll like that.. and to make them felt miserable.. lost his faith and.. gosh.. he been thru a lot.. i mean.. big sucking and embarrassed moment.. im sorry!

what should i do? do i make over my life? a friend of mine said to me last time about going to somewhere to build up a new life.. somewhere that no one will know him.. i think its silly at first.. but after a thought and two.. i think.. thats the way it is..

ppl judge.. by the thing we did in pass.. for me.. pass is passed.. damn.. get over it nisa! but i cant stop ppl from judging.. its their nature.. their way of life.. but not all ppl judge easily..

hurm.. now.. i feel i need a talk to my girl.. pillow talk.. she been thru a lot also lately.. well.. we both need each other.. maybe tonight.. we'll meet.. i need to speak to her badly.. i want to confess.. she'll know about everything.. (er.. maybe not everything!) huhuh..

she seen me in my baddest condition.. she'll understand..

im think.. i've changed.. to something bad.. and i need her advices.. i dont want to stay in this situation.. i need my positive ions back.. i need my sense back.. i need the old nisa.. nisa yg baik.. skrg nisa tak baik.. die ade dark side in herself yg bakal keluar kalau tak dibaikpulih..

some of it dah menunjukkan diri.. im afraid of myself sebenarnye.. im afraid that i cant control it.. and it tends to hurt ppl around me and of course.. myself..






p/s : 20 days to go..

u really make it real for me..

artist : James Morisson
title : you make it real for me


dedicated to ael..


Mmmmm
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's whyyy I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Ohhh
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You make it real for me


p/s : aku minta maaf beb.. huhu..

damn

it just a big misunderstanding..
and im feeling guilty..

gosh!

i wish im there with him..
he had the most roughest time in his life..

im sorry ael!

its obviously my fault..
i would do anything to make it up for u..




hope to see u next year..


p/s : td pegi rompin.. amik sample.. 8 jam hanya di dalam kereta..

al-Fatihah

Amran dah meninggal.. baru je 5 minit dpt sms dr no hp arwah.. tp adik arwah yg sms.. minta tolong viewers sedekahkan al-Fatihah.. semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan mereka yg beriman.. amin..

arwah manusia yg plg friendly.. sangat menjaga hati org lain.. dan sangat jujur.. dia sgt sayang kawan2 nye.. dan semua kawan2nye sayangkan die.. termasuk aku..

doakan roh arwah senantiasa dicucuri rahmat..

Yesterday I Went Outside
With My Momma's Mason Jar
Caught A Lovely Butterfly

When I Woke Up Today
And Looked In On My Fairy Pet
She Had Withered All Away
No More Sighing In Her Breast
I'm Sorry For What I Did
I Did What My Body Told Me To
I Didn't Mean To Do You Harm
But Everytime I Pin Down What I Think I Want
It Slips Away The Ghost Slips Away

I Smell You On My Hand For Days
I Can't Wash Away Your Scent
If I'm A Dog Then You're A Bitch

I Guess You're As Real As Me
Maybe I Can Live With That
Maybe I Need Fantasy
A Life Of Chasing Butterfly
I Told You I Would Return
When The Robin Makes His Nest
But I Ain't Never Comin' Back
I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry

i pray u'll do fine ikan!

tagged.. and it will never end..

owh.. aku kene tag by am.. we'll disebabkan aku mmg tade keje.. and date aku dah balik ke rumah manis rumahnye.. so.. ape lagi?

ehemm..

1. nama timang-timangan anda dari org tersayang..
i. cik yong : by baby aiddil.. sah2 tipu.. sejak bile die dah bleh berckp?
ii. nisa : by semorang.. sebab semorang sayang aku.. erk!
iii. . . . . . : by encik skandel terbaru..

2. anda seorang yang..
cool (enuf said)

3. makanan dan minuman favourite anda..
makanan dan minuman yang disuap oleh org tersayang.. hehe..

4. favourite colour..
warna kereta saya!

5. favourite song..



6. siapa yg membuat anda tergelak..
sape2 yg kelakar.. bile saya gelakkan lawak kamu.. kamu ptt bersyukur.. hehe.. weekk!

7. siapa yg membuat anda stress..
ah.. diri aku sendiri.. sebab tak reti nak kontrol perasaan.. hampeh.. stress tu dtg dr diri sendiri pon kan?

8. tiga benda yg mesti ada dalam beg kamu..
i. wallet yg penuh duit
ii. handphone yg penuh credit
iii. rubber.. eh.. chewing gum i mean.. waakaka.. mati la wat lawak lucah.. (ops tiru ayat am)

9. kali terakhir kamu beriya-iya menangis.. kenapa?
aaa.. tah.. sebab takut.. takut menghadapi hidup yg memerlukan kita berharap..

10. perkara paling lucu dan memalukan dlm hidup anda..
tah.. lupe.. lalala..

tag 6 rakan anda..
sape2 yg terase die antara berenam ini.. sila la wat..

phew~

ahhaaa.. (tiru gaya seseorg itu..)

wow.. WOW the only word that can describe the feeling.. my weekend full with activities.. tak pernah aku the whole weekend asyik keluar.. nak nak di tgh hujung bulan seperti minggu ni.. mak oi..

hurm.. ah.. jap2.. ade org ajak dating..

hahah..


p/s : malam ni.. malam ni.. malam ni.. uh ah!





p/s : malam ni ade activity membedal makanan ok.. korg pikir ape?






masa tambahan :

owh ok.. date malam ni kensel.. asfa nyer seminar drag until.. i dunno when.. so.. maybe tomorrow night la kami dating..


ehemm.. ehemm.. eheheheheeemmmm..

eh? cam nk announce ape2 je? takde la.. tekak gatal.. wakaka!



he decided that he's gonna STAY! boley tak nak guling2 cam tenggilingg?


im so happy.. sampai terlupe esok aku kene keje.. (eh? lupe ke camni?)

oh god.. oh god..

last night im in heaven..


i slept so deep.. and waken up by my phone vibrating.. its only 6.50am.. and its my mom.. i was like? what?

'nisa.. bangun.. kete kamu kene pecah..'

ha? ha?? ha?!

dari mamai.. aku seperti kene electric shot.. aku lari terus turun bawah.. argh! my BABY!!! momot!! i almost cry to see what happened to my car.. it was the most heartbroken moment.. but i cant express my feeling in front of him.. aku baru 'sigh' dah kene sound.. my god!

lepas check if ada barang2 kene amik ke.. the son of the bicth just took my old sunglass.. and it was broken actually.. duit tak sentuh langsung.. mmg bangang!

aku doa.. moga ko dilanggar kereta kuda!!!! tp tak mati.. cume mati pucuk sebab kemaluan kamu dipijak kuda!! mampos la ko jual bontot pasni!!

pastu td nak dijadikan hari ni hari yg plg malang.. kunci lab tempat training aku terbawa balik.. huwargh.. aku rase nk bunuh org!! kesian kak aida.. die kene blame.. aku terlupe kunci ada pada aku.. suppose the key must not given to any outsider.. which is me.. tp urusetia takmo in charge the key bile nak kuar break etc etc.. but what the hell.. its my fault and that make me even sickier!

nisa being clumsy!!!!!!


i hate! i hate! please gimme pills for cure clumsiness!!!!!



cermin kereta aku dah repair.. tapi aku tak tgk lagi.. sbb my bro yg bwk gi repair.. aku ade training.. takleh nk ngulor.. huhu.. tp training kali ni sangat OK overall.. huhu.. tp tak brani ckp lagi.. ada 2 hari to go.. shhh..

i need hugs.. and there is someone yg nak bg hugs! yeay! hmm.. say YEAH!




p/s : i rindu sama leo.. nak lepak.. nak lepak.. meh dgr kata rintihan ku!!!

i wanna na na na..

the feeling is.. natural.. it come without intention.. and it feels so good that i wanna cry.. i feel like flying.. na na na.. i wanna feel lost.. in a world i created.. na na na.. i wanna feel the same breeze upon my face again.. na na na..

i wanna feel that warmth again.. i wanna i wanna!

hurm.. it seems so close yet too far away.. i know its impossible.. but thats what hopes for.. na na na.. i wanna hopes again..

but if there is no other way than our own way.. hope u will be okay.. na na na..




adakah aku gila? tak.. tapi apesal aku nk menggila aje ni?



penat wo hari ni.. keje je.. keje keje keje! huhuhu.. tp semenjak 2-3 hari.. aku rase penat mana pun.. aku rase hepi! gile betol la saye nih.. scary mary..



p/s : satu2nye mende yg aku nk wat sekrg.. makan ais krim coklat!

day savior

haha.. dgn bermodalkan nama kamarul.. (ceh!) daud call aku.. menyamar la konon.. tp tak payah la lame2.. i cam suara u okay! tp sempat gak la 2-3 minit die menjadi poyoman.. hhahaha

betul2 made my day.. TQ!

actually.. ramai yg menceriakan aku today.. aku td demam.. kecian dok? pastu die teman sms2.. terhibur gak hati yg tgh panas membara..

skrg plak.. tgh chat ngan one unique guy.. but he always said that he's weirdo.. thats weird! hahahaha..

see.. ppl treat me nicely.. see!

and i really appreciate those efforts ppl!!

so skrg aku kembali ke fahaman aku.. yakni.. reflexist.. bermaksud.. aku akan bersikap sebaik mane mereka bersikap baik terhadap ku.. ok ka? ni dulu aku camni la.. tp disebabkan kelembapan atmosfera.. aku berubah kepada org yg tak reti malu.. so.. im back to school y'all!!!

owh.. saket tekak la.. laaa.. aku minum sirap ais ke? ish2.. cemane nak baik camni? wakakka!



okla.. aku nk menjalang ni.. daa..

ruined

woke up at 7.45am.. took my shower.. leave home.. headed to my office.. yep yep.. on my day off.. i went to office.. nak bind aku punye lab handouts je.. 30 copy.. sengal gak tulang belakang..

then went home.. tukar baju.. lepak².. i thot this will be the most pleasured day of my week.. but my wonderful day today ruined!

i dont know what the reason for them to be so angry with me.. argh! one of them screamed 'bodoh! bangang!' at me and im stunned.. well.. its not that i never gone thru this kind of situation.. but right from nowhere!

its hurt so bad! i want to scream!!!! i ran to my room.. before that i manage to turn off the laptop and the tv.. ye la.. bil tu.. nnt melambung aku kene lagi.. sampai bilik aku terase bengang! aku amik baju.. ingat nak kemas² (bukan utk lari ye.. sebab semak betol..) lastly aku campak aje.. geram!!!






p/s : please pray that this will go away.. all i want to do is love them..

p/s : semalam lepak ngan sue.. sampai kol 2am.. besh..

serenade of love

this song is definitely suitable enough to be dedicated to your soul mate.. so.. i dedicated to mine..





owh.. by the way.. where the hell r u? huhuhu..

owh.. esok keje.. today i bgn lambat woo.. i thot br kol 8am.. rerupe.. its already 12.30 noon.. sengal kan? Cheras hujan aa.. seronot tido..

uh-oh.. adakah aku bermain ngan api? tapi api ni lain sikit.. ia tak panas membakar or kasi melecur.. cume memberi rasa hangat utk jiwa aku yg tgh beku.. just nice.. ecergh! puitis mitis plak..

im human.. human have needs.. and i need company.. i need someone to talk to.. and there he was.. im thankful.. if it was meant not to last.. still.. i had a great time.. i had fun and a wew bit of warmth.. that should do i think..

im grateful to meet a good person as he is.. i hope we will be friends foreva!

(friends with benefits? wakakaka sambil guling²!)





p/s : die demam.. kasihan!

p/s : to asfa yg bakal balik dlm beberapa hari ni.. i wish u a safe journey! cant wait to see u!

birdie..

i didnt feel free at all.. cuz i never been caught anyway.. nga nga nga.. so.. my feeling is natural.. haha.. woah! esok cuti.. which i didnt like! (poyo with the biggest P) hahah!

hurm.. keje manyiak woo.. Oh! oH! td i tgh senang lenang dgr mp3.. sekali my colleague ckp.. aritu staff meeting (which i didnt attend) dorg ade rise pasal issue mendengar mp3 player.. yadey yadey yadey!

apesal plak? huhu.. dr i dgr suara² yg berbagai.. alangkah baiknye kalu i dgr suara Gerard Way.. hohoho.. why? ala.. harap hangat² tahi manusia aje.. (sebab bile die plup! dlm air.. suhu immediately turun..)

hoho..

okla.. chalo chalo..





p/s : im feeling like flying!

it feels like uuuuuuuuuuuu...

lagu ni lagu lame.. tapi.. the feelin is fresh.. freshah!



Artist : Alicia Keys
Title : You Dont Know My Name (yep.. u dont!)

buleh tak i nak ckp i ske that guy dlm video tu? bleh? bleh ke? wakakak! damn yummy okay!


ok.. lets talk about my today.. haa.. i went to Palm Oil Mill in n9.. huwaaa.. byk kene gigit nyamuk n semut.. so what? sape suh pijak sarang dorg? hoho.. tp i like..

pastu wa dah pening dh.. pening ngan bidang tugasan yg tak clear n berterabur.. aiseh.. takde project meeting ke ek? i wonder.. big time wondering!

department i today.. lengang.. td i tutup kedai kol 10am sampai kol 4pm.. sebab i ade site.. huhuhu.. where's anyone else? depa cuti.. ade yg mc.. eleh.. eleh.. hahahaha..

this week tak sebest last week.. why? ntah.. tabeshda.. tabesh.. tabesh..


malam tadi sgt kelakar.. shhh..


pagi td i bgn lambat.. masin betul mulut budak seorg tu.. kene bg makan gula² byk² la.. hahaha.. biar manis mulut tu.. ngee..




p/s : apesal ek? aku tgk vids tu.. aku rase excited!
p/s : it happen all over again.. i had enough i think..

my bestie got herself engaged..

first of all.. CONGRATS to faiz ♥ ifa a.k.a chips (ecey name glamer tak leh blah..) hehe.. on their engagement! setelah.. jap aku kire.. 9 thn memadu kasih.. akhirnye bersatu juga!! aku yg excited lebey pulak!!!

saya rase.. saya sgt rugi tidak pegi ke kelantan to witness my best friend bertunang.. huhu.. im so sorry cik cipah.. ok dear my stalker.. i present u all ngan gamba cik cipah tgh menunangkan dirinye..

org KL mari.. PJ to be exact..

sila fokus ke bhgn kiri gamba.. in background.. solid beb!

aboh n bakal aboh.. hehehe..

mamatok faiz sarung cincin..

uu.. u really worth it my fren.. really worth it..

tada.. ni dia orgnye.. such a sweet heart kan? haha.. beruntung encik paez..

i really love this pic.. congrats to u!

ahh.. aku rase lega.. rase seperti aku dah bebas tanggungan.. pasni faiz la yg amik alih.. eh.. aku berbunyik cam bapak chips plak.. wakakakka.. ehhehe.. im so happy for her.. selain sue ♥ talaha.. chips ♥ faiz pon telenovela yg aku ikuti.. ahaha.. argh.. im so happy :D enuf said..


p/s : salam aidiladha..

p/s : this event was on 5th dec 2008.. and i wish i could be there.. but selangor tak cuti hari jumaat laa..

sila lihat urat leher ku..

bontot berbau!

dekat 3 jam aku tunggu setting router n modem.. last² die cakap.. 'u beli modem ni kat tempat lain.. tak pernah jumpe this kind.. maybe u boley mintak tlg kedai yg u beli utk set kan..'

bawang betol!! dah aku beli DLink.. kedai ko ade byk modem DLink.. tayah putar².. cakap aje ko tak reti.. macam aku.. aku ngaku aku tak reti setting out modem n router.. babithurat!!!

tak pasal² hidup aku rugi 3 jam semata² menunggu ko tenung modem aku sampai kuar metol di atas kepala.. chaite!! aaaaaaaaa! hidup aku ni dah sememangnye kurang ceria.. apesal la ko nak tambah dosage unhappiness kat aku wey!!

aku rase penat sgt today.. bangun pagi awal plak tu.. kul 8 lebih dah segar mate.. pastu bgn gosok gigi.. tgk tv.. makan sandwich 2 keping.. terus siap² pegi The Mines.. dari kol 12 lebih sampai kol 4 lebih.. argh! aku tak ske! wasting my time! habuk pon tarak! sakit jiwe je ada..

pastu aku try on balik aku nye modem kat umah.. mangkok bertingkat! tak detect plak modem.. aku dah kuarkan segala cercaan dah.. argh! kene install balik.. appendix betol!

pas instal aku baru bleh connect internet.. sengal betol.. aku stress sampai leher aku sakit.. bygkan.. gile punye penat n stress.. aku aim hari ni utk bersenang lenang.. tp terjadi juge keadaan di mana aku terpaksa tegangkan urat merih aku!!!

pastu aku beli la donut big apple utk org² di rumah.. dgn harapan utk dijadikan desert.. FYI.. aku tak lunch lagi.. balik² umah.. selak tudung saji.. yellek.. inaporinggey! kapish.. kapush.. habuk pun tarak.. waaa... i dah la penat.. lapar.. haus.. kering kontang.. jerangkap samar!

nak nangis pon ade wooo.. last² aku makan je la donut tu.. nak muntah pon ade.. kejam dunia ini.. kejam.. i takmo donut.. i nak eskrem.. nak eskrem!!



p/s : aku yg nak.. aku yg tanggung la.. be cool..

moody

apesal tah.. arini rase moody.. rase nk marah je.. seme org ckp aku snap.. snip.. snap.. snip.. adekah aku nk menopous? eh.. lupe.. aku tgh musim monsoon bulanan.. tp.. tu seme excuse or mmg ade kajian saintifik yg mengatakan bahawasanya jika seorg perempuan datang bulan.. so die buleh moody?

hurm.. skrg yg buat aku bertambah² moody iyalah.. bile aku ke Mines utk set up router n modem.. leng chai tu ckp.. 'u on PC then connect the wire terus boley surf internet..' tapi.. bile aku sampai umah.. aku try connect.. cam HARAM.. tak buleh!

segala maki makian utk mu.. huhuhu.. aku takleh gune router.. kene gune modem sahaja.. service charge aje dah rm20.. chaite! tp habuk pon tarak! malas betol aku nk pegi mines balik.. MALAS! byk sgt kereta dan org.. kalu nk pegi pon.. tgk la kol 9pm nnt.. bile dh lengang.. urgh!

keje aku menimbun.. ade 2 set comment report yg aku tak go thru lagi.. punca aku tak go thru lagi? sbb training last week.. alamak.. aura moody aku dah nak berubah kepada stress bile mengenangkan nextweek opis kosong.. no one will help me go thru the comments!

stress la plak.. dah la nk present on 15th which on 15th also aku ada training lg.. mangkok eskrem!!

takpe².. rilek².. keje mmg takkan abis.. yg abis.. napas aje.. huhuhu..




aha.. i ade kenal sorg mamat cute.. cute ke? cute la.. cute cute cute.. hehehe.. titik noktah..

teaser aku utk kehidupan aku saat ini.. ngeh ngeh ngeh..



woah.. Raya Haji lusa ek? hurm.. apesal aku tade perasaan excited? aku terase cam biase je.. seperti hari² sebelumnye.. huhuhu.. gile la.. perasaan utk 'berase seronok bile ade public holiday' tidak lagi ku rasa? ngeri!!! adakah aku sudah menjadi antara dikalangan mereka?

mereka sape? mereka yg tak suke cuti.. seperti aszda.. sebab die kate.. kalu cuti.. byk keje tangguh.. uh.. same la ngan ape yg ku rase skrg.. ngerii!!!

huhu..


p/s : seriously.. i tak sabar nak tunggu krismas!

p/s : seriously.. aku terase nak terbang :P

sepam dua

finally the training ends.. well.. i know that it will end.. but i never thought that i will feel sad.. haha.. but what the hell.. next training ade berlambak lagi.. and aku sgt² harap that silly things will never occur again anymore..

silly things? hurm.. takmo cite..

so.. am i going to jb? or am i not? i want to go.. close friend kawen ma.. bukan selalu.. tapi tgk ah.. on the way ke jb musti jam on 25th dec! huhu..

so.. next week.. ramai org opis i cuti seminggu.. i tak cuti.. i kan kuat berkerja.. yuck! muntah! owh.. aku br dpt balik comment utk report yg tada 'ong' tu.. argh! comment yg sama! wth? dengki tol ah org yg comment.. aku rase nk pijak je leher sesape yg comment..

wat semak otak!



p/s : owh i lonely bang!

please! not another today!

jap jap.. aku nak ekspresi diriku jap..


BLUEARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!


huh! tak cukup nih.. jap jap..


BLUARGHARKKKTUUUIIIHHHH!!!!!!!!


lega ke? hahaha.. ok.. meh aku cite sket pasal hari aku hari ini.. hari ni aku pegi ke UKM.. ade training yg company aku handle.. and aku sort of jd urusetia yg tak bape nk setia.. also known as runner.. wa tadahal.. tu seme keje wa.. wa redha n wa pon suke sebab wa tak payah termenung² di opis..

tp yg menjadi kan wa berkayap telinga.. bile issue² dalam client company aku ni.. aku naik rimas.. aku naik lemas.. kes pasal junior nak tebas senior la.. adeh.. junior tu pun cam tak agak² la pon.. senior pon ape lagi.. sinsing lengan laa.. adeh..

pastu.. yg agak tak bleh blah yerla.. asisstant yg si junior ni cari utk tolong² jadi fasilitator training ni.. die ni penah jd trainee and aku antara fasilitator die.. TAPI.. yg aku sangat bengkek.. bile die BAJET bagus..

mentang² boss aku tu recognize die.. die mule la.. tak abis² 'anak murid kesayangan' la.. 'best student' la.. aduuu.. aku mmg tau die mmg byk bertanye last time.. n die antara yg menonjol mase program last time.. TAPI.. PERLUKAH?

PERLU KAH?

argh! and pastu yg mmg sangat tak boleh blah.. bile.. aku sorg je yg sorting apparatus.. wth? WTH? kau dtg sini setakat nk komen²? itu tak patut.. ini tak patut.. baik tak payah dtg.. sgt bleh blah! huhu.. setakat pernah dtg training.. then nak tunjuk hebat? urgh..

aku ni dah tahap peluh ketiak mmg menjatuhkan saham.. sabar je la.. takkan dah nampak aku n senior² duk sorting² barang.. korg leh tgk² laptop sambil gelak².. wah².. amboi².. kalu anak aku tu.. aku sebat ngan wayer laptop tu je..

pastu yg junior tu pun.. last minute ade je nak tukar schedule la.. nak tukar test la.. nak tukar ni.. nak tukar tu.. aku ni dah sabar tahap menggigil tgn.. please la.. ingat aku takde keje lain ker? asik nk tukar².. pastu dah la cost tak kaver.. ape yg aku buat tu kire amal jariah.. beb.. kalu tu opis AKU.. or BAPAK AKU punye.. maybe aku leh donate 40 copy schedule yg akhirnye tak digunakan pon.. tapi ianya bukan aku or bapak aku punye!

yg plg lawak tak lawas.. bile aku call die pagi tadi.. tanye.. perlu ke aku fotocopy schedule tu.. die kate.. PERLU.. and bile aku ke lab.. tgk.. dah ade 40 keeping schedule yg telah difotokopi.. aku tgk tgn aku.. eh? aku masih pgg yg aku fotokopi.. TAPI? aiseh! die suruh org lain fotokopi lagi.. whuuut?? ape kes?

aku dah pening.. senior tu pun kesian tgk aku pening².. blom start training aku dh pening.. how la men? huhu..

aku ada prob beb.. i dunno how to express my feeling in real life!! aku tak reti nak tunjuk ikhlas.. even ade je staff company aku tu mintak tolong.. tp aku akan buat muke blurr.. padahal aku tak kisah aje.. tp die sampai ckp sorry ah if menyusahkan.. aku like what? aku ikhlas! aku tak kisah! wa tadahat! but my face shows the opposite!

muke.. tolong lah berekspresi!!

huhu.. this is not the baddest day.. but this day been hard.. with sweating and look like aunty! i hate! i HATE!





p/s : please please.. let tomorrow shine with bright color!

once upon a time in my office..

tgh syok² wat keje (syok ke?) ada sms masuk.. which kinda sound like this..

'sorry ganggu.. tp if ada bank in duit.. nnt bgtau saya..'

and it is from mr H.. i admit.. i borrowed some money from him.. to go to pangkor sebab gaji time tu tak masuk lagi.. then we quarrelled.. break up.. he promised to pay for the kain lace yg aku beli (utk tunang) and i already pay the money i owed.. half.. lagi half i assume yg die takkan mintak sebab die nk byrkan utk kain tunang..

and suddenly.. die sms asking for his money.. ehh.. aku actually tak berkira sangat.. tp bile org wat tahi ngan aku.. takkan aku nk buat kek utk die? lagipon die sendiri ckp nk byrkn kain tu.. not my fault.. is it?

ape pendapat korg? aku tatau nk rase ape.. aku terase blurr..

pastu aku reply sms die.. ckp pasal die nk byrkan kain tu? masih nk byrkan ke tak? then die ckp.. oo.. lupe.. kire setel.. tp why aku tak sedap ati ha? aku rase cam tanak amik duit die sesen pon.. cam nak pulangkan je balik semua barang yg die bg.. tapi kalu consult mak aku.. mak aku ckp.. BODOH ah kalau pulangkan balik.. hahaha..

mak aku mmg cool..

takpe la.. bukannye aku kikis harta die mase kitorg still same² dulu.. die yg nak memberi.. dan aku juge ade memberi.. so.. kire setel..



p/s : praying hard that gaji masuk this week.. come pray with me!

p/s : sabtu ni ade girls day out ngan my cousinz! ape² plan postpone to sunday..

p/s : hey.. pray harder!

jemputan 'bundle'

pernah kah kalian membaca buletin spt ini

walimatulurus polan & peah.
anda semua dijemput hadir ke majlis perkahwinan kami di bla bla bla. sila rujuk peta di profile saya. kehadiran anda semua diharap memberi rahmat.

or

assalamualaikum kawan².
aku nk kawen bulan depan. korang² marilah dtg ke kenduri aku di alamat bla bla bla..

or

pengumuman!
sape² yg nak pegi kenduri aku sila bagi alamat.

or

polan n peah akan melangsungkan perkahwinan! jom kite ramai² pegi kenduri dorg!


although its quite money saving way of inviting ppl to wedding its also quite pitiful i would say.. n bak kate nura 'jemputan kawen secara bundle' haha.. and if u guys read that kind of message.. what would u do? go to the wedding? or reply to the sender to ask properly? or just ignore it assuming its just spam?

adekah aku begitu demanding? i dont know.. aku tak terasa excited utk pegi ke kenduri kawen cam gitu.. terasa macam tak diajak pun.. so.. for my answer.. im not going..

hurm.. arini.. cam nk gile aku boring di opis.. sampai aku ketuk bilik superior aku mintak bagi la aku kerja.. huhuhu.. menahan mata supaya tak tertutup.. menahan idung dr kembang bile nguap.. sapu² minyak angin di dahi supaya segar.. urgh.. boring.. my other senior pegi monitoring.. tp tak ajak pon.. majuk ah!

huhu.. tetibe tade idea ah.. okla.. aku nk lepak² angkat kaki.. tgk tv :D

its exactly like eating beans..

the alarm went off.. mariah carey's husky voice infiltrate my ears.. i must get up.. i must.. zZzZz.. ohhh.. rupe²nye aku tekan butang snooze.. seb baik snooze 9 minit jer.. if snooze 9 jam? huhu.. mampos.. extra 9 minutes pon jadi ah.. hehe..

bangun² tutup aircond.. burr.. sejuk.. nak mandi ke? mandi la.. i mane penah tak mandi pagi.. lalala.. pas mandi.. mak oi.. sejuk menggila.. huhuhu.. sesiap all.. salam mak.. salam bapak.. calam yadel.. then.. start the engine.. pasang cd org gilak.. clear my throat.. drive sambil nyanyi²..

menuju ke opis.. sampai opis.. lepak pantry jap.. pastu burak² ngan staff yg senior.. die pesan.. 'kalu kerja.. tak buleh silent²..' aku pun angguk.. eh.. patut aku ckp 'ya betul..' nak wat cemane ek? one of the office's policy is.. pergaulan laki n perempuan terbatas.. so? meme la.. terbatas pon jgn la sampai maklumat tu tak sampai rite? keje tertangguh rite?

aku sokong brader tu.. tp nak wat camne ek? aku tak pernah lagi jadi diri sendiri di depan dorg.. sebab situasi tak mengizinkan.. hurm.. suddenly.. aku terase boring.. im new there.. i want to learn.. but how can i learn something if there's no one to teach.. self-teach? wow i can do that.. but it wont be enough..

i want ppl to take me seriously..

after lepak pantry.. sesiap.. pagi UKM.. wat test.. sgt boring n sgt sejuk.. macam kat umah mayat pon ade.. huhuhu.. finished at lunch time.. hurm.. i wonder la.. why ppl in my office suke melewatkan balik ke rumah? adekah aku sorg je yg menunggu² pukul 5.30pm? hhuhu.. takleh jd pekerja contoh ah ni? hahaa.. takde harapan laaaa..

hurm.. enough of the office thingy.. now let me story tell about yesterday.. went to my aunt's place.. ade swimming session.. ade masak session.. ade makan session.. it was lovely.. huhu.. dania pun ade.. eh.. tersilap.. skrg dania dipanggil hasfariesya.. bukan dania lagi :D both ways.. still sound adorable.. die sgt comel ok.. huhu.. geram! ana ade.. hasri ade.. farid ade.. zati ade.. syida ade.. afiq (tolong²) ade.. hadim ade.. opah chu ade.. three cik a'a angels ade.. (dulu dorg ni di panggil power puff girls.. skrg.. she spies la..) hihi.. seghonok sgt dan juge sgt penat.. balik.. online jap.. then debush! berlayar ke alam misteri..

so tadi.. balik² masak jap.. pastu makan n mandi.. then.. tercongok la depan pc ni.. and at this kind of situation.. terdetik di hati.. best ke jadi aku ek? huhuhu.. argh.. macam tak bes je? why? why? nape aku tade duit berlien²? huhuh.. kalu ade.. fuh!! ish² duniawi.. duniawi..

tomorrow got nothing to do.. can i just stay at home instead of doing nothing but cracking my brain and burning my eyeballs in office? please².. let me stay at home please.. huhuhu.. in my dream..

ha.. satu lagi.. ape kes astro poor signal plak? bukan ujan pon.. nyampah dowh! geram jer.. dh bape hari dah.. takkan nak tgk AXN je? kdg2 AXN ni menyakitkan hati.. nak gak aku tgk cite tamil.. huhuhu! erk?

generally.. i felt sorry for malaysian in penang.. their politician fighting over language on road signboards.. urgh.. come on.. grow up please! and one more.. UMNO begging Tun Dr not to reveal those who practiced politik wang? why? ceh! and please suratkhabar malaysia.. saye tanak buka paper n baca isu² org tua tapi sgt childish! owh saye boring!

huhu.. i really need to go SHOPPING la.. woman's best therapy.. hahaha.. uu.. i wanna i wanna! yeay.. sue said YES! girls day out.. yeyeye.. girls day out! yeyeye..



not to forget!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Kak Emi!!! jumaat ni ok!



p/s : mr H IS encik stefani.. lalala.. sambil berlalu pergi..

entry khas

wey.. ni hau?

heehehe..

acik sgt teruja dgn latest entry Penulis pasal 'Lelaki Kacak Dekat di Hati' maka.. saya ingin plagiat idea tersebut.. hehehe.. tapi title berubah sket ah.. ehemm.. di umumkan.. title saye utk post ini yerla.. teng tedeng!!

Jenis Lelaki Contoh utk dijadikan LAKI

no 1 : Sangat Kelakar


seperti brader ni.. die mmg manusia plg kelakar yg pernah aku ketahui.. tapi yg buat aku jatuh tangga ngan mamat ni.. die buat lawak dgn muke die yg tade perasaan.. uhhh.. pastu die ni kiyut.. tgk la gamba diatas sebagai proof kekiutan die.. huhuhu.. kalu dpt lelaki yg funny macam Adam Sandler.. aku rase aku akan nampak mude senantiasa!


no 2 : Caring


aku tatau la David Schwimmer ni caring or not.. tp Ross Gellar (sila rujuk sitkom FRIENDS) mmg caring gilerrr..

no 3 : Romantic


mamat yg dah berumur gak nampak romantic.. tp aku suke character die dlm cite 'Message in a Bottle' sebab die sgt romantic masakkan dinner.. sgt romantic lah senang kate..

no 4 : Seksi


mintak ampun ye.. saye mmg terliur tgk King Leonidas ni.. aura sexy die pergh! sgt² menggejolakkan rase curiosity.. hepp hepp.. takleh cite lebey.. sile lihat badan die dah menjawab pertanyaan mengapa saye suke die..

no 5 : Cute


aku rase aku tak perlu ckp lebih.. die ni mmg kiyut! tinggi plak.. pastu gigi die sgt marveles.. i loike it! he baked cakes just to attarct woman that he like.. wow.. tak ke kiut ganda seribu?


ahhaha.. ape yg aku list ni hanya impian dan idaman kalbu.. bukan guideline pon.. hanya coretan mengisi masa.. hehehehe.. tapi kalu acik dpt salah satu dr dorg ni.. or org yg ala² camni acik announce la yek.. hahahaha.. so.. aku nk tido la.. nk mimpi indah..

mai dey tu dey

Congrats!!

to my beloved best friend.. Sue ♥ Talaha for their engagement day yesterday!!

pictures will be uploaded immediately after i received the files from Haida.. huhu.. my battery charger is missing so.. no camera.. what a shame!



ok.. dah upload.. ngee..

it was a very sweet ceremony.. haha.. i like it.. even i feel jealous a bit.. but hey.. its nature of human.. happy for them.. just a bit of envious.. and its neglectable!

and yesterday.. i took half day.. unpaid leave.. but heck.. not often my besties got engaged right? and my rewards? i can witness my friends happy day :D thats the most important..

and today.. what did i do eh.. hurmm.. owh yea.. cleaning the living hall.. then.. do some mopping.. Aiddil is not around.. if he's around.. a bit hard to do some cleaning.. cuz.. i cant stop playing with him!

he's gettin cuter n cuter each day.. adorable baby! and he love to laugh.. hurm.. i think i miss him.. hehehe.. just imagine.. i just look at him.. and he started to smile shyly.. (tayah buat 'emm chak' pon.. just tgk je..) and with those big eyes.. urgh.. i do miss him!

tapi bile mama die ade.. sumbong! huh!

hehe.. owh.. Michael Jackson converted to Islam.. heard the news tak? wah.. satu anjakan paradigma bagi penganut agama asal beliau.. syukur alhamdulillah.. beliau telah mendapat hidayah..

aku pun perlukan anjakan paradigma.. semalam sudah melangkah satu tapak.. yakni dgn mengambil gambar bersama sue di atas pelamin beliau.. ade berkat ke? ceh..

and last thursday.. i list out my wish that i would like to achieve.. in term of barang la.. bukannye term of kuruskan badan.. sebab wish tu macam cukup sukar nak digapai..

every month.. i want to save money.. to buy those things i wish for.. kene ah beli sendirik.. aku takde santa claus.. huhu.. one of the item is.. new tiles for my room.. owhh.. aku tak post entry pasal parket bilik aku dah jd hotel 5 bintang pada koloni anai² ek?

meh aku cite.. blk dr opis.. aku rase.. bilik aku agak boring.. so.. try la nk ejas² ape yg patut.. alih je katil.. tada! huh! geli woo! and mereka attack buku² aku time aku blaja di UTM dulu.. sgt terkilan ok! so aku amik shieldtox.. spray sampai dorg terkulai.. ala² pelupusan etnik ah! and skrg.. hasil peninggalan kubu anai² masih ade ok.. lobang sane sini.. huhu!

thats why aku nk tuko.. definitely not wood laa.. im thinking of.. tiles cap kuda africa.. sejuk sikit.. hehehe..

hurm ok la.. nak wat laundary.. hehehe.. da!





p/s : another reward is.. the chocolate cake.. nice choice talaha-kun!

(pissed² + tension²)/bored = eat²

hurm.. dem bored.. senior aku still takde.. so aku sorg jaga kedai.. hahaha..

announcement!

Majlis perkahwinan Kak Farawahida Zainal Abidin akan berlangsung pada 25th Dec 2008.. so.. aku nk pegi.. kat JB la.. hehehe.. yuk kite ke JB yuk!

aku rindukan JB.. rindu time study.. rindu meggi.. hahaha.. rindu la environment di UTM dulu.. ahh.. rindukan kelas encik Muzaffar.. haha..

hurm..

aku rindu air milo kat meranti.. :(

owh semalam.. ade org call.. die ni ade history ngan aku.. BAD history.. aku kalu bleh takmo angkat.. tp dah die YM aku dulu.. and aku pon reply YM die.. takkan aku nk ckp yg henpon aku ade di marikh dan aku takleh nk pick up?

so aku pick up la.. die buat suara machit (macho tersepit) selama beberapa minit ckp ngan aku.. pastu die tanye.. what happened? how the breakup happened? so aku tanpa ditunggu² cerita dr A to Z la..

aku mmg kuar n hamburkan segala rase terpendam di hati.. segala mak nenek carutan makian dan cercaan aku luahkan.. tujukan khas utk laki loser tuh.. tp dlm mase yg same.. aku tujukan pada dia jugak.. sebab die pon ade bad history kan..

hahaha.. amek la.. free gift dr aku utk ko yg sgt mengambil berat akan aku yg ko tipu² dulu.. amek la.. amek laa.. amek la! huh.. die tu lupe ke? aku kan benci die? nape tah nak juih muke utk diberi cacian? die ingat.. die caring.. aku leh lupe segala sifat mughalazah yg die buat kat aku dulu? sorry beb.. sorry bebanyak sebab ko tak jauh beza ngan ex-bf aku yg loser tuh..

huh.. die kate die rindu kat aku.. nak muntah ok.. even aku dah termuntah dah pon dalam hati.. huh.. tu la die.. laki tak kenal untung.. bile aku ni bebetul sayang.. die buat aku cam kasut.. lebih hina mungkin.. skrg.. ko cari balik aku.. so.. sila baca signboard di depan ye..

'loser are not allowed!'

masih tak paham? sila buka kamus dwi-bahasa ok.. takkan itu pon nk diajo?


p/s : i really need vacation.. a good one..

p/s : i dont need someone buat aku rase aku ni cam barang.. get it?

diam.. diam..

shh..

semurang tgh busy.. tp aku tgh nak buat konon² busy nih.. ehehek.. semalam aku agak hangen satu badan.. leh kategori 'bad' day la for this week.. and hopefully yesterday is the baddest day la.. takmo badder day dah plis!!

semalam.. aku kene pegi UKM.. ade keje.. nk check all the chemical in the lab.. eh? cam supplier plak ek? hehe.. bukan.. ni seme sebab training yg company aku handle.. so aku kene la confirm.. cukup ke tak chemical? rite? hehe..

tp alkisah.. ade training lain tgh berlangsungkawa di dlm lab tersebut.. tp org yg jaga lab tu kate aku leh je masuk.. wat muke selenger and check.. tapi.. bile aku dah sampai.. bile aku dah masuk.. damn!! seme barang dah disusun rapi dlm kabinet.. and aku kene selongkar.. adeh.. pastu dem!! my shoes plak leh wat bunyik² annoying bile aku melangkah.. setan!

bayangkan la.. suasana sepi sunyi.. tetibe sekali aku melangkah.. tuk! tak! er!! aku terase aku ni mengganggu.. so aku call blk org lab tu.. ckp aku buat later.. and it about 2 and half hour later plak tuh.. haiya.. aku takmo balik opis.. kompom org kate aku ni sengal.. so.. aku lepak kat San Fransisco Pizza.. makan Choc Fudge with eskrem vanila ditaburi kacang dan disirami caremel.. mak oi.. sedap.. tapi tak besh.. sorg²..

lepas menyentap kat sane.. aku solat jap then pegi la ke lab tu semula.. kene tunggu lagi.. 40menet.. adehai.. lepas 10 menet aku check seme² equipment and chemical.. aku blah.. balik ke cheras lalu jalan kajang lame.. then aku nampak.. Village View.. fuh! gempak.. one day.. aku kene try makan kat sinun.. wajib!

so skrg.. aku bored.. my seniors bz monitoring (site) so.. tade sape supervise aku.. cubicle ini ana yg punya!!! hahahampeh.. so ptg ni.. jika diizinkan tuhan.. and hari tak ujan.. im going to visit my jogging trek.. dah lame woo tak kuar peluh.. aku dh terase macam tak sehat plak.. ish².. lengan aku dah berkepak.. belakang aku dh bersayap.. huh! aku kene jogging! hhahaha!

okla.. aku nk makeover meja aku.. aku terase cam tak teratur je.. huhu.. okla folks.. keje bebaik na.. jgn malas².. ceria selaluu.. uu..


p/s : dulu saye syg kat kasut adidas tu.. tp tidak lagi!

its a small cyber world after all..

ehermm.. eherm.. (betulkan anak tekak sket..)

tade pape.. saje berdehem.. kahak byk arr.. hari ni aku agak stress.. sampai aku rase nak amik bantal.. tekup kat muke.. and jerit sepenuh hati.. tp aku dpt idea lain.. instead of doing something silly like that.. why not i just take the car and go round n round?

aku stress pasal.. jumaat lepas hujan lebat.. kilat sabung menyabung.. pastu one kilat burnt the fius utk rumah aku.. maksudnye.. bile aku on pc.. tup! die punye tuil tu tertolak.. dah byk kali aku try untuk on PC.. still tolak! pastu aku try on lagi.. eh! ok.. tak tolak.. lepas aku on pc and sign in YM.. tup! ilang.. sakit hatinye.. aku nampak bantal.. tp aku sabarkan diri lagi.. aku amik kunci kete.. masuk kete.. pasang cd best².. sing along like nobody business..

tau ke mane aku pegi? ahaha.. trek turun temurun aku.. highway bukit ampang.. speed sampai puas.. segala kete yg makan angin aku zas! 2 laps.. pastu balik umah.. mood dah ok.. decide to cook dinner for my family.. ahahaha.. lega! puas!

yg buat aku lg puas.. ade org reply msg.. so funny.. thot he wont reply.. but he did.. although not so encouraging.. but at least he did.. ahhaha.. but still not so encouraging lah.. aiyo!!!

i know i've been saying this for so many times.. haha.. but.. sukati ah.. aku nk ckp lagi sekali.. i want to be slimmer.. huhu.. and i only got 4 weeks to go.. to.. err.. make myself more u know.. attractive.. coz.. my best buddy is coming home!!! why to make myself attractive plak? sebab kami ade mission.. and its pnc.. no no no.. ur puppy eyes wont make me reveal our mission.. hhahaha.. bluek!


hurm.. cyber world is small after all.. admit that i've been joining the chat rooms.. bukan nk cari jodoh.. just saje.. nak kenal orang.. nak kenal manusia² di serata pelusuk dunia.. so.. tgh lepak² usha².. ade sorg mamat tegur.. borak punye borak.. sekali.. ek ele.. mamat ni satu fakulti ngan aku.. why aku kenal die? sebab aku ni suke observe org.. and why die tak kenal aku? sebab aku low key and die perasan die femes.. tak abes² 'kalu aku femes.. aku terkenal ngan ape?' then.. 'kalu aku femes.. bla bla bla?' then lagi.. 'kalu aku femes.. bluergh bluergh bluergh?' weh.. aku kenal ko sebab aku ni jenis org yg suke observe.. bukan sebab aku worship ko la.. adoyai..

susah betol.. mmg terase.. eh.. kecil nyer dunia cyber nih.. hahaha.. hurm.. esok keje ke? adeh.. adeh.. terase nak pitam plak.. hehehe.. malam ni terase nak kasi satu lap lagi.. tapi.. tak berani.. sane kawasan gelap woo.. hurm.. so maybe aku kasi satu lap dalam mimpi la.. hahahah.. okla.. dah tatau nk wat kerepek ape lagi.. uuhuhu..


p/s : td aku wat 2 laps.. pon aku dah rase boring.. aku tatau la ape perasaan F1 driver tu utk buat beriban² lap.. huhuhu..

serangkap.. dua rangkap..

holla papita.. holla mamasita..

i wonder.. what happened to friendster? cant seem to login.. ade org tak byr bil ke? huhu.. teruk betol.. aku ni tgh mencari² jawapan.. adeh.. sipot menyedot!

how am i today? not as relax as yesterday.. haha.. hari ni hari yg biase² aje.. tade pe yg menarik.. jumpe my ex office mate.. lepak makan all.. burak².. mengenyam²..

hurm.. aku seperti hilang hala tujuan la.. asik ngadap internet tak habes².. bile tah aku nk mengadap org yg cute.. tinggi and funny.. aku dah hilang selera ngan internet plis!

my mom recently asked me.. dah ade relationship baru ke? ai ai mak ni.. ingat org ni ala² tyra banks ke? huhuhu.. if aku tyra banks.. huish.. bankrupt la CEO bank tu.. wakaka!

hahaha.. aku tak terase nk berkenalan ngan org baru.. aku nk lepak ngan org lame.. yg leh berborak².. yg bleh bergelak².. yg bleh berflirt².. strictly.. NO MARRIED MAN ALLOWED!

ade sorg ni.. nak kenalkan aku ngan duda.. keje hebat.. developer.. tp sleck.. ada janda.. n anak dah 4.. haiyoo.. mintak ampun.. mintak maap.. anda disqualified.. tidak lah beta sanggup!

ade gak la single person yg terlintas.. tp noho wayhey.. acik tak desperate nk berkapel beb.. acik nk kawan jer.. teman burak².. teman lepak² sambil menyentap.. eh.. meyantap.. huhu..

aku tade kawan laki yg cenggitu.. sebabnye.. ada 2 situation yg mengakibatkan mende ni terjadi.. satu.. either aku tak berminat.. nombor dua.. die yg tak berminat.. wawa!

kenapa aku tak berminat? sebab.. depa harap lebih.. ade agenda tak syiok.. ade simpan perasaan n tak sabo² nak luah.. aku rase meluat.. menyampah.. geli geleman.. bulu meremang!

kenapa depa tak berminat? sebab aku bukan tyra banks.. aku tak gorjes.. aku tak hot.. aku tak ade tarikan sexuality yg boleh buat mamat tu bangga dilihat berjalan ngan aku..

so.. itulah alkisahnye.. aku takmo pon jd tyra banks.. sebab kompom.. dorg nk hangout sebab² diatas sahaja.. so.. seb baik la.. kalu tak.. tumpo beta!

tp kdg² aku yg tak gorjes ni needs time out with someone.. girlfriends? hahaha.. to be honest.. i got so few single girlfriends who i really close with.. so.. nada la.. huhu..

why i want guys? becoz.. they different.. i like differences.. i mean anion and kation la.. different.. but still the same species.. although they different still tarik menarik.. kau mmg de bom..

aku tak perlukan lelaki utk ckp pasal cinta.. aku perlukan dia utk ckp pasal ape yg aku buat hari ni.. team bola ko hampeh.. utusan sgt childish.. sebot 'woi' pon nk kecoh.. those things la..

sebab sebut pasal cinta.. hope tu tinggi.. and i kinda phobia plak nk hope² ni.. laki² yg aku kenali.. tahap kualiti tak up to ISO 14001:2004 (mentang² br blk dr seminar CIDB..) hihi..

yep aku tau.. soalan tu akan terpana balik kat aku.. aku ni UP sgt ke? eh.. ISO aku lain dr ISO CIDB tu.. ISO aku senang je.. asal ko tak melakukan yg negative sudah ok..

nape aku demand? eh.. ade ke org nk laki yg isap ganja? ade? ade ke org nak laki yg asik² bg makan pelempang.. ade? nauzubillah! aku cerca org yg melakukan mende tu..

aku tak demand harta.. aku tak demand body yg fit.. aku tak demand kete.. aku just demand sesuatu yg dpt meyakinkan yg aku akan bahagia nanti.. tu jer.. simple ma..

hurm.. cakap pasal mende ni buat aku rindu plak nk hangout ngan sorg mamat.. tp.. ish kahena.. tanak nye die nak kuar ngan aku.. sebab well.. im not tyra banks.. im tyre river bank.. huhu..

eventho die tak ckp ape².. eventho die act yg die sgt innocent and baik.. but i knew deep down inside.. die ade strong desire utk pompuan yg cun melecun.. aku ni ape la kan? haaha..

wa tadahal.. teringat je.. wa pon takkan ajak die hangout.. watpe nak menyorongkan juih bibir ini.. hanya utk mendapat tamparan hina.. kan? baik aku kuar sorg.. lepak tgk bintang dpn umah..

aku actually rase lega dpt menulis seme ni.. sebab lately.. aku rase aku tak terluah akan sesuatu.. finally.. terlepas jua.. fuh lega.. cam dpt berak lepas menahan berak utk sejam dua..

and suddenly.. aku tak terase nk jumpe sape².. i think sitting outside n stare to the night sky is better than to pretend not to look so desperate.. haha.. padahal.. aku tak desperate mane.. yeke?

hehehehe.. hamsap betol.. kantoi tak bleh blah.. ala.. it ok kan? as normal human being.. its normal to feel alone and bored when nobody around to cheer u up rite?

nak tgk tv.. astro tade siaran nih.. hujan.. huhu.. nk watpe? urgh.. kembali bosan.. huhuhu.. feels like to type n type sampai word limit.. eh.. ade ke pon limit? hek ele.. hahaha..

okla.. dah byk sgt kerepek aku buat malam ni.. bukan ade yg nk makan pon.. hehe.. esok nk cuci momot.. kasi shine².. biar peluh kuar.. supaya sihat n kuat macam tiger!

it happen on thursday.. uu.. uu..

Yesterday.. my Bapak's Birthday..

Happy Birthday Hj Azizi B Hasan!

moga selalu sihat dan panjang umur serta dimurahkan rezeki..

amin



ok.. nk start ngomel².. td pegi kursus CIDB.. kat Grand Season.. haha.. seharian aku menahan sengguk.. dah le aku duduk first row.. tp speaker tu tak nampak muke aku.. ahhaha.. sebab stand die tu sgt besar.. hehehe.. pastu stage plak sgt tinggi.. hik hik.. muke i terselindung..

yg aku hangen satu badan yer la.. pejabat aku tu ade masalah communication la.. huhuh.. selalu tak clear.. selalu buat aku tertanye².. kang aku terlebih tanye.. ade plak yg anggap aku ni bodoh ya amat plak.. huh!

malam ni.. aku nk diperjelaskan ttg sesuatu.. so aku akan byk bertanye.. if.. tak dijawab.. so aku akan jump to conclusion..

jump jump jump bunny jump!

i mean.. hop bunny hop!

hahaha!




sebab aku malas dah nak syok sendiri dlm dunia fantasi.. padahal that is obviously MY rights kan? tp malas.. malas.. malas..




ok la.. nk pi interbiu.. daa dii duuu..

caffein rush!

urgh.. pening plak.. huhuhu.. minom byk sgt nescafe la.. adeh!

ade org pesan jgn minum nescafe.. minum milo.. huhuhu.. milo 3-in1 ade.. tp aku tak ske.. pastu die suh minom air masak.. which aku tgh buat skrg.. haha.. blog sambil nyelam beb!

keje tade nih.. tp seb baik la bos ajak meeting.. so aku leh jenjalan riang ria.. hahaha.. boleh imagine tak.. aku tade keje.. i mean.. keje dh setel.. siap mintak kat senior aku utk bg keje lg.. tp die kate die buleh handle.. so aku ni dah naik buntu merenung screen pc.. uhuhu.. nak aje aku bukak mangavolume.. tp agak melampau kot.. hahaha!

pasni kol 2.30 aku nk chow pi serdang.. bermeetingan ngan bos.. haha..

kepala aku selalu pening ah.. why ek? aku terase cam mata aku dah makin teruk.. nak pi check cam tade mase.. plus tade duit pon.. bukan check mata free ke? haha.. optical store tu dlm shopping complex kan? of coz aku nk shopping juge.. so.. kalu tade duit.. tak besh ah! huhu..

n one more.. i know that i AM fat.. i got extra fats all over my body.. and please dont think that i like my condition now.. please dont say that i dont want to loose some of those fats.. its not that easy.. so.. say something i dont know ok!


p/s : take it.. or leave it!

its freaky sunday.. eh?

tadi pg kenduri aboy.. dh jadi cam reunion plak.. haha.. most of them aku recognize.. but surely.. they dont remember me.. haha.. but i dont feel bad.. aku kan low profile.. low key.. low yat.. haha.. what the hell.. its not the end of world if they dont know me.. ceh..

semalam asfa called.. nice long chat.. haha.. balik la cepat.. bleh kite vacation same² sambil mengusha mamat² cute.. haha.. yeap.. i admit that i feel terribly down.. pressured.. lost for a while.. outer line.. i look ok.. inner? haha.. im broken to pieces.. hell.. talking bout it wont helping much.. so.. i've decided to gain back all my sense.. and start searching for the best.. yep.. i do love him.. and sometimes.. i miss him.. but him is not the answer for my quest.. am i on a quest? eh!! correction! im actually not in a hurry dear.. tapi bile dah tiba masa.. so.. nak wat cemane? haha..

there is one song that i currently cant stop listening to.. ops.. takleh embed the video clips.. but this song really nice.. nak dgr gak.. then youtube je ok.. hahah..

Artist : Leona Lewis
Title : Better in Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

p/s : dont freak out.. its freking me out..

p/s : esok keje ke? aiseh.. baru nk pegi Bali..

cimeci? ngo emci!

urp.. perut memulas.. tp dah lepak² jamban still takde dpt ape² hasil pelaburan.. huhu.. aku rase maybe aku minum air pearl tadi kat bistro tuh.. adeh.. kembang kuncup perut acik! adakah ianya mengandungi melamine? (saje je nak sebut melamine..) but i like the pearl.. gummy.. i loike!

hari ni hari yg plg bosan gile.. n panas.. 2 botol air kosong licin in an hour.. kering betul tekak saye.. and hari ni jugak hari yg plg mengecewakan.. my application to further study.. rejected! hampeh.. kerek je U yg aku apply nih.. huhuhu.. hampeh!!

some of my conversation with the admin staff U tersebut..

nisa : saye nk tau la saye dpt or not..
O : course yg cik amik?
nisa : Master in Civil Environmental
O : oo.. course work ye?
nisa : yep..
O : nama cik?
nisa : -pnc-
O : owh.. no ic.. (she recite my IC no.. and aku dah excited.. sambil tgn buat aksi 'YES!!')
nisa : yep yep..
O : permohonan anda.. (berdebar² gile!) GAGAL..

korg tau.. aku terus patah hati.. rase nk nangis pon ade.. rase nk kuar je dr opis pon ade.. rase nk baling receiver phone tu pon ade.. seme la ade.. seb baik tade sape yg wat lawak kering ngan aku mase tu.. mmg kompom aku siku dlm hati.. huhu..

aiseh.. dugaan no 2.. hahaha.. huhuhu.. hehehe.. sebabnye aku tak cukup 2 thn kerja.. takpe².. tunggu next year.. siap ko.. baru tau sape kerek.. urgh!!! tension! bikin hati wa calar balar!

aku tgh ade perasaan nak sambung study ni.. larat lagi nak isi form pastu mintak² signature ni.. tak dpt lak masuk.. huhuh.. ergh! kang kalu dah malas nak belajo.. malas dh nk gi kelas.. hingin ke aku nk sambung? ergh! ni dugaan yg aku rase agak mencabar.. huhu..

binci!
binci!
binci!

lately rase cepat je mase berlalu.. baru je rase semalam baru jumaat.. tgk² hari ni dah jumaat juge? Hiro Nakamura kah saya? nope.. im a girl.. hahaha.. aku sgt depressed.. so malam ni terapi baik punye.. huh!





my new signature for email : .Living IS Believing.

poyomon with the big P!






p/s : sometimes i want to question.. why? why? why? but after a thought or two.. i just swallowed it.. for my own good..

im a proud single woman

almost hit and been hit by car tadi.. urgh! need to be more careful! i tak kawen lagi ok! sile berhati²! haha.. adeh.. bile dh nk terlanggar.. baru rase kecut telur eventho aku takde telor yg boleh mengecut.. huhuhu..

eh.. terlucah plak.. aha.. cakap pasal lucah.. ade mamat kat opis ni.. die kire baru masuk la sebab lewat sebulan dr aku.. eh.. baru le tu.. tp yg aku agak terkijat.. die leh wat lawak lucah plak.. er.. perlu kah?

weekly routine dak² opis aku yerla main futsal di malam hari jumaat.. ni duk kalut² la kompemkan pegi ke tak.. n nak dijadikan kisah.. mamat lagi sorg ni takleh join.. pastu korang tau ape mamat baru ni cakap? die ckp.. 'alah.. nak main bola sendirik kat umah le tu..' i was like.. 'what the f*ck?' (dalam hati) dah le aku tgh berdiri antara mereka berdua.. ergh! hello! eskusmi.. ko ingat aku pekak ke? tak malu ke? ish².. maybe ko tak malu.. tapi aku yg mendengar ni malu plak..

hadeh..

payah tol la org dirty minded.. mende simple pon nk dilucahkan.. huh!

tapi bak kate fiza.. laki yg dah kawen ni.. mmg tak sah kalu tak sebut mende lucah seharian.. mesti gatal la mulut nk berlucahan.. aiseh.. tercemar pemikiran acik yg suci nih!

some of org² di opis dah tau perihal peribadi aku.. so what? aku tak rase ape².. haha.. aku dah kensel dh baju tunang tu.. save bajet.. haha.. and.. ehemm.. ehemm.. aku nak umumkan ye.. aku sedikit pon tak rase segan.. or malu.. or tersipu² dgn keadaan aku.. mmg aku tak jadi tunang.. so what? it his lost.. not mine.. he decided.. so i also made up my mind.. what ever it takes.. we will never be together..

so im proudly inform that im single.. and very available.. sila beratur ye abg².. wakakak! ehemm.. kalu ade abg sedare ke.. abg ipar ke.. sepupu sepapat yg kiut lagi kacak.. kaya pon kaya la.. i tak memilih.. pastu sebaya or tua dr saye.. rekemen lah yek.. hahaha.. i kesepian ni.. eww.. geli mat!?

and bagi laki kategori sengal yg dah 'in relationships' aku advice.. get ur ass ready baybeh! make up ur mind.. please dont hurt those that put high hopes on u.. and please be extra patient.. u need it to get through this phase.. for girls plak.. pijak je leher dorg kalu ngade² sgt.. eh.. bukan.. bukan.. tolerate.. tu je..


p/s : left my phone at office.. hurm.. tolong kejut pagi nnt ek..

me today.. hopefully just for today..

im at my office.. kerja? kerja la.. but.. takde kerja sgt.. i was hoping my senior ckp camni 'nisa.. bleh tolong tak? bla bla bla..' huhu.. aku bosan.. bile bosan.. aku jadi bengang sebab aku pening kepala kene pikir ape je yg aku nk wat ni?? huhuhu..

kecoh plak nisa ni..

hurm.. aku ingat nk pegi theme park la.. uhu.. aku aim.. water world melaka.. nk naik yg slide yg tinggi tu.. dr highway pon leh nampak slide tu.. hihihi.. ade bran? hek hek..

sape yg nk ikot?

err.. errr.. sape?



boring..

malam tadi penat gile.. tido awal.. kol 8pm dah tersembam.. terbangun kol 9pm lebih.. online jap.. dah abis routine online dibuat tp still boring.. lalu aku ketiduran semula.. huhuhu..

ah! skrg pon boring nih.. ergh! dh la lapar nih.. bile la nk pukul 1? come on! huhu!

tadi tetibe aku nye network down.. org lain ok je.. apesal ek? huhu.. takkan on yahoomail tak leh? aku skrg gune wire connection lain.. huhu.. bored!

okla.. aku nk cari something to eat.. starving!



p/s: attn to kekasihan.. aku tak suke di-tak-pedulikan..

the way to be fat littered with good fast food.. urgh!

hurm.. last saturday i had to go to office.. sampai opis layan nasik lemak n nescafe o.. pastu dpt sms dr sue.. cik sue kite ajak teman die potong rambut.. so kol 12 aku dah setel keje kat opis.. lalu balik le ke rumah sesiap.. then cup cap cup cap.. siap! nak gi gunting rambut!

sampai je kedai gunting rambut.. belek² rambut ini.. sayang plak nk gunting.. hahaha! so cuci n blow aje.. tp tak syok sgt.. i nak salon yg buat highlite aku tu.. cantik!!

pas gunting.. kami ke OU.. n lepak kat Chllis Bar & Grill.. yum yum!! (zatul.. jgn jeles!) haha! aku makan old timer burger with cheese.. and.. it was gigantic! huhu.. sue makan tacos.. sgt marveles n aku dah kembung.. gile lah!

pastu kami jalan² sampai rase lapar balik.. haha.. gile tak?

sampai umah kol 8 lebih.. sesiap nk gi umah mak yan ♥ cik a'a kat usj.. berdesap desup.. hik hik.. aku overnite kat umah depa.. malam tu ingat nk layan wall.e tp i ngantuk tak hengat.. huhuhu.. pastu yg plg menduga yerla.. bile opah chu tanye kenduri tunang bile.. wakaka.. aiseh.. tak jadi la opah.. memule die ingat aku memain.. adeh.. hik hik..

aku rase aku ni leh kembang ni.. khamis lepas makan pizza hut.. thanx to razi ♥ zatul.. friday mkn McD ngan neena n kak emi.. (ni cite pjg ni.. malas nk story..) sabtu makan chillis.. bagus kan? hahaha.. ahad lepak umah mak yan.. pergh.. non-stop woo makan aje.. abes la.. wakakak!

actually teringin nk jumpe baby dania.. huhu.. tp tak sempat.. takpe la.. next time la ye..



leg note :

kene keje ke esok? sabtu dah gi keje dah.. huhu..

jauh di dalam..

my dear burung pungguk,

i was hoping big time that u understand..
this is the hardest moment for me..
but u being near me..
i felt like i have a shoulder to cling on..
i have pair of arms to rely on..
have time to breathe..
im so thankful to have u around..

im so thankful..
i hope u didnt misjudge me..
im not as strong as u think i am..
im vulnerable now..
im miserable now..
im hopeless now..

but i need u..
please help me..
stay beside me..




nota kaki :

1. mr H punye ym berstatus 'tetaplah menjadi bintang di langit' which is our song.. and i just wonder.. what the hell he was thinking? please f*ck the hell..

2. tomorrow kene keje.. but its actually a good idea.. cuz i dont cry in office..

3. after stay in office.. nak gi rumah mak yan ♥ cik a'a.. swim² time..

4. jauh di lubuk hati.. sakit..

kirimkan aku kekasih yg baik hati!

hidup aku tak berubah ape² pon.. pegi keje.. balik keje.. still the same.. org comfort aku.. tp aku rase biase.. tu seme aku pernah dgr sebelum ni..

daud cakap aku hebat.. and suh aku jgn sedih.. ikut celah mane.. perasaan sedih tetap ada.. bleh kata jika terdetik aje.. segala sebak hinggap di tekak.. tp.. big girl dont cry a lot.. haha..

sabar.. tade lain.. tawakal.. be cool.. relax.. redha.. things happen for a reason.. there's always a bright sun behind grey clouds..

malam tadi aku sunyi.. and like a baby.. i cried myself to sleep.. bukan aku nak sedih sebab aku hilang Mr H.. aku dah tanak kat die pun.. cume aku sedih bile dipermainkan..

he have extra balls if he contact me again.. macam tadi.. call tanye alamat.. i was like.. wtf?!? couldnt u just sms? what r u trying to do? mmg betul² agak macibet..

sue pun duk tanye.. ok ke tak? ok ke tak? im fine.. and im sure that im fine because there's she beside me.. my mom also.. and those who cares.. thanx gezzilionz!

td jumpe baby kitty tepi jalan.. he looks scared.. so i thought if i hold him.. he will stop yelping.. but he bit me! poor me and the kitty.. left alone.. poor poor thing..

owh.. ade lagu best utk dilayan bg melayan perasaan aku..



title : Munajat Cinta
by : Ahmad Dhani

amin.. semoga termakbul doa.. hihihi..

p/s : to 'burung pungguk'.. cepat² la pulang ke sarang..

back to singlehood

setelah dicanang²..
setelah dirisik²..
setalah menempah baju..
setelah diberi harapan..

die mintak putus..

maybe aku jadi lemah lutut jap..
maybe aku nangis tanpa henti selama 2 jam..
maybe aku panggil sue dtg umah utk dipeluk..
maybe aku dgn mata bengkak² pi bitau mak aku..

but im relieved..

but what makes me 100% sure that he's not for me is..

my mom pray for me every day that if he is not for me.. then putuskan la dgn senang..

n mmg betul² senang je die mintak putus.. dgn alasan.. tak tahan aku merajuk.. aku merajuk? come on.. tanye la sesape pon.. aku kuat majuk ke?

and azza pun cakap..

azatul: im glad u find out before u were actually in a marriage ngan that guy

tuhan masih sayang aku..
mak aku sayang aku..
eventho die selalu wat macam tak kisah..
die doakan kebahagiaan aku..

to cik a'a.. this is what i choose.. sila la sebarkan ye..

im hating it!

people changed.. enough said.. my heart is really aching.. irritation increased by seconds.. meluat.. menyampah.. geram.. benci.. cukup.. segala mak nenek yg sama maksud dialu²kan utk beratur same ye.. benci.. benci.. benci!!

if i bump into a genie in a bottle that granted me a wish.. not 3.. but only A wish.. i wish that i can live happily alone.. aku tak perlu dgr kata² rindu yg palsu.. aku tak perlu dgr kata² pedas yg menyakitkan hati.. aku tak perlu rase guilty sebab buat org rimas.. aku tak perlu timbal-balik efforts.. aku tak perlu rase dendam.. aku tak perlu rase terkilan.. aku tak perlu rase sedih.. n so on.. segala mak nenek la..

yang aku rase.. happy.. alone.. positive ions je menyelubungi aku.. hidup berdua mmg lebih baik.. bg sesetgh org.. kalau dpt berdua ngan org yg nak berdua dgn kamu la..

aku tension.. tertekan.. maybe luaran aku nampak macam ok.. tade masalah.. dalaman aku terseksa.. aku rase cam nak tido sampai bile².. aku rase macam nak drive to nowhere.. aku perlukan angin malam.. aku perlukan gelak ketawa.. aku perlu org mendampingi.. aku perlu berteman.. kawan biase ade.. tp tak same.. aku perlu teman utk berbicara.. yg memahami kehendak aku.. dah die mmg willing utk berbuat demikian.. bukan kerane aku ni partner die.. tp sebab die rase ade tanggungjawab utk membuat aku happy..

aku nk seorg lelaki yg lemah lembut.. penyabar.. penyayang.. pengasih.. biar tak semegah mane.. manis tetap ade jika perlakuan nya mulia.. mane pun.. itu tak jd masalah.. tade harta ke.. kaya ke.. itu bukan priority.. cinta yg mendalam.. sayang tanpa had.. itu yg aku cari..

aku cari lelaki yg pandang aku bukan sebab nafsu.. tapi sebab die tahu.. aku boleh melengkapkan hidupnya.. aku punca kebahagiaannya.. aku lah antara faktor utama pernikahan.. sebab kalu nk kawen sebab nk ade isteri yg disayangi.. pompuan lain pon boleh jd isteri itu.. aku tanak kawen sebab tekanan masa.. aku tanak kawen sebab tekanan org luar.. aku benci perlakuan sebegitu.. seperti lembu dicucuk hidung.. seperti utk cukup syarat saja? hah!?

bila perkahwinan disalahertikan dgn beban.. maka.. perkawninan tersebut mmg akan menjadi beban.. perkahwinan itu mulia.. ikatan kasih sayang.. hidup mati.. 2 jasad.. 2 roh.. yg saling faham tentang kekurangan masing².. yang saling cuba memahami kelebihan masing².. dan saling melengkapkan antara satu sama lain.. cinta yg tulus.. cinta yg ikhlas.. cinta yg menggembirakan.. indah tak terkira.. bila ada musibah.. tak mudah melatah.. sama² ikhlas memperjuangkan cinta yg dipupuk.. jika melatah pun.. masih berkerjasama utk kurangkan latah.. tolong menolong.. dan kasih mengasihi..

tak perlu keluarkan kata nista yg menyakitkan hati.. mengapa perlu kita sakitkan hati org yg kita akui amat disayangi? maka terus jatuh la org itu ketahap org yg dibenci.. setiap kali disakiti.. perasaan kasih itu mule pudar.. diganti pula dgn perasaan amarah.. benci dan dendam..

aku cinta kamu..
dan kau pun cinta aku..

bila kau tunjuk cinta..
aku suka..

bila aku tunjuk cinta..
kau suka..

tapi lama-lama..
kau jemu..

aku tunjuk cinta..
kau bagi pelbagai alasan..

aku tunjuk kasih..
kau palingkan muka..

aku tunjuk rindu..
kau sepi saja..

aku tunjuk rajuk ku..
kau terus membenci!

kesimpulannye.. cinta tu berpenyakit! cinta buat org jadi kurang menggunakan akal! cinta buat kite dibenci! cinta buat org meluat! cinta tu mainan! jangan harap dpt jumpa cinta sejati selain cinta pada-NYA! cinta antara manusia tak kemana..

tolong la ingat tu nisa!!!



aku benci perasaan cinta ini!