once upon a time in my office..

tgh syok² wat keje (syok ke?) ada sms masuk.. which kinda sound like this..

'sorry ganggu.. tp if ada bank in duit.. nnt bgtau saya..'

and it is from mr H.. i admit.. i borrowed some money from him.. to go to pangkor sebab gaji time tu tak masuk lagi.. then we quarrelled.. break up.. he promised to pay for the kain lace yg aku beli (utk tunang) and i already pay the money i owed.. half.. lagi half i assume yg die takkan mintak sebab die nk byrkan utk kain tunang..

and suddenly.. die sms asking for his money.. ehh.. aku actually tak berkira sangat.. tp bile org wat tahi ngan aku.. takkan aku nk buat kek utk die? lagipon die sendiri ckp nk byrkn kain tu.. not my fault.. is it?

ape pendapat korg? aku tatau nk rase ape.. aku terase blurr..

pastu aku reply sms die.. ckp pasal die nk byrkan kain tu? masih nk byrkan ke tak? then die ckp.. oo.. lupe.. kire setel.. tp why aku tak sedap ati ha? aku rase cam tanak amik duit die sesen pon.. cam nak pulangkan je balik semua barang yg die bg.. tapi kalu consult mak aku.. mak aku ckp.. BODOH ah kalau pulangkan balik.. hahaha..

mak aku mmg cool..

takpe la.. bukannye aku kikis harta die mase kitorg still same² dulu.. die yg nak memberi.. dan aku juge ade memberi.. so.. kire setel..



p/s : praying hard that gaji masuk this week.. come pray with me!

p/s : sabtu ni ade girls day out ngan my cousinz! ape² plan postpone to sunday..

p/s : hey.. pray harder!

jemputan 'bundle'

pernah kah kalian membaca buletin spt ini

walimatulurus polan & peah.
anda semua dijemput hadir ke majlis perkahwinan kami di bla bla bla. sila rujuk peta di profile saya. kehadiran anda semua diharap memberi rahmat.

or

assalamualaikum kawan².
aku nk kawen bulan depan. korang² marilah dtg ke kenduri aku di alamat bla bla bla..

or

pengumuman!
sape² yg nak pegi kenduri aku sila bagi alamat.

or

polan n peah akan melangsungkan perkahwinan! jom kite ramai² pegi kenduri dorg!


although its quite money saving way of inviting ppl to wedding its also quite pitiful i would say.. n bak kate nura 'jemputan kawen secara bundle' haha.. and if u guys read that kind of message.. what would u do? go to the wedding? or reply to the sender to ask properly? or just ignore it assuming its just spam?

adekah aku begitu demanding? i dont know.. aku tak terasa excited utk pegi ke kenduri kawen cam gitu.. terasa macam tak diajak pun.. so.. for my answer.. im not going..

hurm.. arini.. cam nk gile aku boring di opis.. sampai aku ketuk bilik superior aku mintak bagi la aku kerja.. huhuhu.. menahan mata supaya tak tertutup.. menahan idung dr kembang bile nguap.. sapu² minyak angin di dahi supaya segar.. urgh.. boring.. my other senior pegi monitoring.. tp tak ajak pon.. majuk ah!

huhu.. tetibe tade idea ah.. okla.. aku nk lepak² angkat kaki.. tgk tv :D

its exactly like eating beans..

the alarm went off.. mariah carey's husky voice infiltrate my ears.. i must get up.. i must.. zZzZz.. ohhh.. rupe²nye aku tekan butang snooze.. seb baik snooze 9 minit jer.. if snooze 9 jam? huhu.. mampos.. extra 9 minutes pon jadi ah.. hehe..

bangun² tutup aircond.. burr.. sejuk.. nak mandi ke? mandi la.. i mane penah tak mandi pagi.. lalala.. pas mandi.. mak oi.. sejuk menggila.. huhuhu.. sesiap all.. salam mak.. salam bapak.. calam yadel.. then.. start the engine.. pasang cd org gilak.. clear my throat.. drive sambil nyanyi²..

menuju ke opis.. sampai opis.. lepak pantry jap.. pastu burak² ngan staff yg senior.. die pesan.. 'kalu kerja.. tak buleh silent²..' aku pun angguk.. eh.. patut aku ckp 'ya betul..' nak wat cemane ek? one of the office's policy is.. pergaulan laki n perempuan terbatas.. so? meme la.. terbatas pon jgn la sampai maklumat tu tak sampai rite? keje tertangguh rite?

aku sokong brader tu.. tp nak wat camne ek? aku tak pernah lagi jadi diri sendiri di depan dorg.. sebab situasi tak mengizinkan.. hurm.. suddenly.. aku terase boring.. im new there.. i want to learn.. but how can i learn something if there's no one to teach.. self-teach? wow i can do that.. but it wont be enough..

i want ppl to take me seriously..

after lepak pantry.. sesiap.. pagi UKM.. wat test.. sgt boring n sgt sejuk.. macam kat umah mayat pon ade.. huhuhu.. finished at lunch time.. hurm.. i wonder la.. why ppl in my office suke melewatkan balik ke rumah? adekah aku sorg je yg menunggu² pukul 5.30pm? hhuhu.. takleh jd pekerja contoh ah ni? hahaa.. takde harapan laaaa..

hurm.. enough of the office thingy.. now let me story tell about yesterday.. went to my aunt's place.. ade swimming session.. ade masak session.. ade makan session.. it was lovely.. huhu.. dania pun ade.. eh.. tersilap.. skrg dania dipanggil hasfariesya.. bukan dania lagi :D both ways.. still sound adorable.. die sgt comel ok.. huhu.. geram! ana ade.. hasri ade.. farid ade.. zati ade.. syida ade.. afiq (tolong²) ade.. hadim ade.. opah chu ade.. three cik a'a angels ade.. (dulu dorg ni di panggil power puff girls.. skrg.. she spies la..) hihi.. seghonok sgt dan juge sgt penat.. balik.. online jap.. then debush! berlayar ke alam misteri..

so tadi.. balik² masak jap.. pastu makan n mandi.. then.. tercongok la depan pc ni.. and at this kind of situation.. terdetik di hati.. best ke jadi aku ek? huhuhu.. argh.. macam tak bes je? why? why? nape aku tade duit berlien²? huhuh.. kalu ade.. fuh!! ish² duniawi.. duniawi..

tomorrow got nothing to do.. can i just stay at home instead of doing nothing but cracking my brain and burning my eyeballs in office? please².. let me stay at home please.. huhuhu.. in my dream..

ha.. satu lagi.. ape kes astro poor signal plak? bukan ujan pon.. nyampah dowh! geram jer.. dh bape hari dah.. takkan nak tgk AXN je? kdg2 AXN ni menyakitkan hati.. nak gak aku tgk cite tamil.. huhuhu! erk?

generally.. i felt sorry for malaysian in penang.. their politician fighting over language on road signboards.. urgh.. come on.. grow up please! and one more.. UMNO begging Tun Dr not to reveal those who practiced politik wang? why? ceh! and please suratkhabar malaysia.. saye tanak buka paper n baca isu² org tua tapi sgt childish! owh saye boring!

huhu.. i really need to go SHOPPING la.. woman's best therapy.. hahaha.. uu.. i wanna i wanna! yeay.. sue said YES! girls day out.. yeyeye.. girls day out! yeyeye..



not to forget!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Kak Emi!!! jumaat ni ok!



p/s : mr H IS encik stefani.. lalala.. sambil berlalu pergi..

entry khas

wey.. ni hau?

heehehe..

acik sgt teruja dgn latest entry Penulis pasal 'Lelaki Kacak Dekat di Hati' maka.. saya ingin plagiat idea tersebut.. hehehe.. tapi title berubah sket ah.. ehemm.. di umumkan.. title saye utk post ini yerla.. teng tedeng!!

Jenis Lelaki Contoh utk dijadikan LAKI

no 1 : Sangat Kelakar


seperti brader ni.. die mmg manusia plg kelakar yg pernah aku ketahui.. tapi yg buat aku jatuh tangga ngan mamat ni.. die buat lawak dgn muke die yg tade perasaan.. uhhh.. pastu die ni kiyut.. tgk la gamba diatas sebagai proof kekiutan die.. huhuhu.. kalu dpt lelaki yg funny macam Adam Sandler.. aku rase aku akan nampak mude senantiasa!


no 2 : Caring


aku tatau la David Schwimmer ni caring or not.. tp Ross Gellar (sila rujuk sitkom FRIENDS) mmg caring gilerrr..

no 3 : Romantic


mamat yg dah berumur gak nampak romantic.. tp aku suke character die dlm cite 'Message in a Bottle' sebab die sgt romantic masakkan dinner.. sgt romantic lah senang kate..

no 4 : Seksi


mintak ampun ye.. saye mmg terliur tgk King Leonidas ni.. aura sexy die pergh! sgt² menggejolakkan rase curiosity.. hepp hepp.. takleh cite lebey.. sile lihat badan die dah menjawab pertanyaan mengapa saye suke die..

no 5 : Cute


aku rase aku tak perlu ckp lebih.. die ni mmg kiyut! tinggi plak.. pastu gigi die sgt marveles.. i loike it! he baked cakes just to attarct woman that he like.. wow.. tak ke kiut ganda seribu?


ahhaha.. ape yg aku list ni hanya impian dan idaman kalbu.. bukan guideline pon.. hanya coretan mengisi masa.. hehehehe.. tapi kalu acik dpt salah satu dr dorg ni.. or org yg ala² camni acik announce la yek.. hahahaha.. so.. aku nk tido la.. nk mimpi indah..

mai dey tu dey

Congrats!!

to my beloved best friend.. Sue ♥ Talaha for their engagement day yesterday!!

pictures will be uploaded immediately after i received the files from Haida.. huhu.. my battery charger is missing so.. no camera.. what a shame!



ok.. dah upload.. ngee..

it was a very sweet ceremony.. haha.. i like it.. even i feel jealous a bit.. but hey.. its nature of human.. happy for them.. just a bit of envious.. and its neglectable!

and yesterday.. i took half day.. unpaid leave.. but heck.. not often my besties got engaged right? and my rewards? i can witness my friends happy day :D thats the most important..

and today.. what did i do eh.. hurmm.. owh yea.. cleaning the living hall.. then.. do some mopping.. Aiddil is not around.. if he's around.. a bit hard to do some cleaning.. cuz.. i cant stop playing with him!

he's gettin cuter n cuter each day.. adorable baby! and he love to laugh.. hurm.. i think i miss him.. hehehe.. just imagine.. i just look at him.. and he started to smile shyly.. (tayah buat 'emm chak' pon.. just tgk je..) and with those big eyes.. urgh.. i do miss him!

tapi bile mama die ade.. sumbong! huh!

hehe.. owh.. Michael Jackson converted to Islam.. heard the news tak? wah.. satu anjakan paradigma bagi penganut agama asal beliau.. syukur alhamdulillah.. beliau telah mendapat hidayah..

aku pun perlukan anjakan paradigma.. semalam sudah melangkah satu tapak.. yakni dgn mengambil gambar bersama sue di atas pelamin beliau.. ade berkat ke? ceh..

and last thursday.. i list out my wish that i would like to achieve.. in term of barang la.. bukannye term of kuruskan badan.. sebab wish tu macam cukup sukar nak digapai..

every month.. i want to save money.. to buy those things i wish for.. kene ah beli sendirik.. aku takde santa claus.. huhu.. one of the item is.. new tiles for my room.. owhh.. aku tak post entry pasal parket bilik aku dah jd hotel 5 bintang pada koloni anai² ek?

meh aku cite.. blk dr opis.. aku rase.. bilik aku agak boring.. so.. try la nk ejas² ape yg patut.. alih je katil.. tada! huh! geli woo! and mereka attack buku² aku time aku blaja di UTM dulu.. sgt terkilan ok! so aku amik shieldtox.. spray sampai dorg terkulai.. ala² pelupusan etnik ah! and skrg.. hasil peninggalan kubu anai² masih ade ok.. lobang sane sini.. huhu!

thats why aku nk tuko.. definitely not wood laa.. im thinking of.. tiles cap kuda africa.. sejuk sikit.. hehehe..

hurm ok la.. nak wat laundary.. hehehe.. da!





p/s : another reward is.. the chocolate cake.. nice choice talaha-kun!

(pissed² + tension²)/bored = eat²

hurm.. dem bored.. senior aku still takde.. so aku sorg jaga kedai.. hahaha..

announcement!

Majlis perkahwinan Kak Farawahida Zainal Abidin akan berlangsung pada 25th Dec 2008.. so.. aku nk pegi.. kat JB la.. hehehe.. yuk kite ke JB yuk!

aku rindukan JB.. rindu time study.. rindu meggi.. hahaha.. rindu la environment di UTM dulu.. ahh.. rindukan kelas encik Muzaffar.. haha..

hurm..

aku rindu air milo kat meranti.. :(

owh semalam.. ade org call.. die ni ade history ngan aku.. BAD history.. aku kalu bleh takmo angkat.. tp dah die YM aku dulu.. and aku pon reply YM die.. takkan aku nk ckp yg henpon aku ade di marikh dan aku takleh nk pick up?

so aku pick up la.. die buat suara machit (macho tersepit) selama beberapa minit ckp ngan aku.. pastu die tanye.. what happened? how the breakup happened? so aku tanpa ditunggu² cerita dr A to Z la..

aku mmg kuar n hamburkan segala rase terpendam di hati.. segala mak nenek carutan makian dan cercaan aku luahkan.. tujukan khas utk laki loser tuh.. tp dlm mase yg same.. aku tujukan pada dia jugak.. sebab die pon ade bad history kan..

hahaha.. amek la.. free gift dr aku utk ko yg sgt mengambil berat akan aku yg ko tipu² dulu.. amek la.. amek laa.. amek la! huh.. die tu lupe ke? aku kan benci die? nape tah nak juih muke utk diberi cacian? die ingat.. die caring.. aku leh lupe segala sifat mughalazah yg die buat kat aku dulu? sorry beb.. sorry bebanyak sebab ko tak jauh beza ngan ex-bf aku yg loser tuh..

huh.. die kate die rindu kat aku.. nak muntah ok.. even aku dah termuntah dah pon dalam hati.. huh.. tu la die.. laki tak kenal untung.. bile aku ni bebetul sayang.. die buat aku cam kasut.. lebih hina mungkin.. skrg.. ko cari balik aku.. so.. sila baca signboard di depan ye..

'loser are not allowed!'

masih tak paham? sila buka kamus dwi-bahasa ok.. takkan itu pon nk diajo?


p/s : i really need vacation.. a good one..

p/s : i dont need someone buat aku rase aku ni cam barang.. get it?

diam.. diam..

shh..

semurang tgh busy.. tp aku tgh nak buat konon² busy nih.. ehehek.. semalam aku agak hangen satu badan.. leh kategori 'bad' day la for this week.. and hopefully yesterday is the baddest day la.. takmo badder day dah plis!!

semalam.. aku kene pegi UKM.. ade keje.. nk check all the chemical in the lab.. eh? cam supplier plak ek? hehe.. bukan.. ni seme sebab training yg company aku handle.. so aku kene la confirm.. cukup ke tak chemical? rite? hehe..

tp alkisah.. ade training lain tgh berlangsungkawa di dlm lab tersebut.. tp org yg jaga lab tu kate aku leh je masuk.. wat muke selenger and check.. tapi.. bile aku dah sampai.. bile aku dah masuk.. damn!! seme barang dah disusun rapi dlm kabinet.. and aku kene selongkar.. adeh.. pastu dem!! my shoes plak leh wat bunyik² annoying bile aku melangkah.. setan!

bayangkan la.. suasana sepi sunyi.. tetibe sekali aku melangkah.. tuk! tak! er!! aku terase aku ni mengganggu.. so aku call blk org lab tu.. ckp aku buat later.. and it about 2 and half hour later plak tuh.. haiya.. aku takmo balik opis.. kompom org kate aku ni sengal.. so.. aku lepak kat San Fransisco Pizza.. makan Choc Fudge with eskrem vanila ditaburi kacang dan disirami caremel.. mak oi.. sedap.. tapi tak besh.. sorg²..

lepas menyentap kat sane.. aku solat jap then pegi la ke lab tu semula.. kene tunggu lagi.. 40menet.. adehai.. lepas 10 menet aku check seme² equipment and chemical.. aku blah.. balik ke cheras lalu jalan kajang lame.. then aku nampak.. Village View.. fuh! gempak.. one day.. aku kene try makan kat sinun.. wajib!

so skrg.. aku bored.. my seniors bz monitoring (site) so.. tade sape supervise aku.. cubicle ini ana yg punya!!! hahahampeh.. so ptg ni.. jika diizinkan tuhan.. and hari tak ujan.. im going to visit my jogging trek.. dah lame woo tak kuar peluh.. aku dh terase macam tak sehat plak.. ish².. lengan aku dah berkepak.. belakang aku dh bersayap.. huh! aku kene jogging! hhahaha!

okla.. aku nk makeover meja aku.. aku terase cam tak teratur je.. huhu.. okla folks.. keje bebaik na.. jgn malas².. ceria selaluu.. uu..


p/s : dulu saye syg kat kasut adidas tu.. tp tidak lagi!

its a small cyber world after all..

ehermm.. eherm.. (betulkan anak tekak sket..)

tade pape.. saje berdehem.. kahak byk arr.. hari ni aku agak stress.. sampai aku rase nak amik bantal.. tekup kat muke.. and jerit sepenuh hati.. tp aku dpt idea lain.. instead of doing something silly like that.. why not i just take the car and go round n round?

aku stress pasal.. jumaat lepas hujan lebat.. kilat sabung menyabung.. pastu one kilat burnt the fius utk rumah aku.. maksudnye.. bile aku on pc.. tup! die punye tuil tu tertolak.. dah byk kali aku try untuk on PC.. still tolak! pastu aku try on lagi.. eh! ok.. tak tolak.. lepas aku on pc and sign in YM.. tup! ilang.. sakit hatinye.. aku nampak bantal.. tp aku sabarkan diri lagi.. aku amik kunci kete.. masuk kete.. pasang cd best².. sing along like nobody business..

tau ke mane aku pegi? ahaha.. trek turun temurun aku.. highway bukit ampang.. speed sampai puas.. segala kete yg makan angin aku zas! 2 laps.. pastu balik umah.. mood dah ok.. decide to cook dinner for my family.. ahahaha.. lega! puas!

yg buat aku lg puas.. ade org reply msg.. so funny.. thot he wont reply.. but he did.. although not so encouraging.. but at least he did.. ahhaha.. but still not so encouraging lah.. aiyo!!!

i know i've been saying this for so many times.. haha.. but.. sukati ah.. aku nk ckp lagi sekali.. i want to be slimmer.. huhu.. and i only got 4 weeks to go.. to.. err.. make myself more u know.. attractive.. coz.. my best buddy is coming home!!! why to make myself attractive plak? sebab kami ade mission.. and its pnc.. no no no.. ur puppy eyes wont make me reveal our mission.. hhahaha.. bluek!


hurm.. cyber world is small after all.. admit that i've been joining the chat rooms.. bukan nk cari jodoh.. just saje.. nak kenal orang.. nak kenal manusia² di serata pelusuk dunia.. so.. tgh lepak² usha².. ade sorg mamat tegur.. borak punye borak.. sekali.. ek ele.. mamat ni satu fakulti ngan aku.. why aku kenal die? sebab aku ni suke observe org.. and why die tak kenal aku? sebab aku low key and die perasan die femes.. tak abes² 'kalu aku femes.. aku terkenal ngan ape?' then.. 'kalu aku femes.. bla bla bla?' then lagi.. 'kalu aku femes.. bluergh bluergh bluergh?' weh.. aku kenal ko sebab aku ni jenis org yg suke observe.. bukan sebab aku worship ko la.. adoyai..

susah betol.. mmg terase.. eh.. kecil nyer dunia cyber nih.. hahaha.. hurm.. esok keje ke? adeh.. adeh.. terase nak pitam plak.. hehehe.. malam ni terase nak kasi satu lap lagi.. tapi.. tak berani.. sane kawasan gelap woo.. hurm.. so maybe aku kasi satu lap dalam mimpi la.. hahahah.. okla.. dah tatau nk wat kerepek ape lagi.. uuhuhu..


p/s : td aku wat 2 laps.. pon aku dah rase boring.. aku tatau la ape perasaan F1 driver tu utk buat beriban² lap.. huhuhu..

serangkap.. dua rangkap..

holla papita.. holla mamasita..

i wonder.. what happened to friendster? cant seem to login.. ade org tak byr bil ke? huhu.. teruk betol.. aku ni tgh mencari² jawapan.. adeh.. sipot menyedot!

how am i today? not as relax as yesterday.. haha.. hari ni hari yg biase² aje.. tade pe yg menarik.. jumpe my ex office mate.. lepak makan all.. burak².. mengenyam²..

hurm.. aku seperti hilang hala tujuan la.. asik ngadap internet tak habes².. bile tah aku nk mengadap org yg cute.. tinggi and funny.. aku dah hilang selera ngan internet plis!

my mom recently asked me.. dah ade relationship baru ke? ai ai mak ni.. ingat org ni ala² tyra banks ke? huhuhu.. if aku tyra banks.. huish.. bankrupt la CEO bank tu.. wakaka!

hahaha.. aku tak terase nk berkenalan ngan org baru.. aku nk lepak ngan org lame.. yg leh berborak².. yg bleh bergelak².. yg bleh berflirt².. strictly.. NO MARRIED MAN ALLOWED!

ade sorg ni.. nak kenalkan aku ngan duda.. keje hebat.. developer.. tp sleck.. ada janda.. n anak dah 4.. haiyoo.. mintak ampun.. mintak maap.. anda disqualified.. tidak lah beta sanggup!

ade gak la single person yg terlintas.. tp noho wayhey.. acik tak desperate nk berkapel beb.. acik nk kawan jer.. teman burak².. teman lepak² sambil menyentap.. eh.. meyantap.. huhu..

aku tade kawan laki yg cenggitu.. sebabnye.. ada 2 situation yg mengakibatkan mende ni terjadi.. satu.. either aku tak berminat.. nombor dua.. die yg tak berminat.. wawa!

kenapa aku tak berminat? sebab.. depa harap lebih.. ade agenda tak syiok.. ade simpan perasaan n tak sabo² nak luah.. aku rase meluat.. menyampah.. geli geleman.. bulu meremang!

kenapa depa tak berminat? sebab aku bukan tyra banks.. aku tak gorjes.. aku tak hot.. aku tak ade tarikan sexuality yg boleh buat mamat tu bangga dilihat berjalan ngan aku..

so.. itulah alkisahnye.. aku takmo pon jd tyra banks.. sebab kompom.. dorg nk hangout sebab² diatas sahaja.. so.. seb baik la.. kalu tak.. tumpo beta!

tp kdg² aku yg tak gorjes ni needs time out with someone.. girlfriends? hahaha.. to be honest.. i got so few single girlfriends who i really close with.. so.. nada la.. huhu..

why i want guys? becoz.. they different.. i like differences.. i mean anion and kation la.. different.. but still the same species.. although they different still tarik menarik.. kau mmg de bom..

aku tak perlukan lelaki utk ckp pasal cinta.. aku perlukan dia utk ckp pasal ape yg aku buat hari ni.. team bola ko hampeh.. utusan sgt childish.. sebot 'woi' pon nk kecoh.. those things la..

sebab sebut pasal cinta.. hope tu tinggi.. and i kinda phobia plak nk hope² ni.. laki² yg aku kenali.. tahap kualiti tak up to ISO 14001:2004 (mentang² br blk dr seminar CIDB..) hihi..

yep aku tau.. soalan tu akan terpana balik kat aku.. aku ni UP sgt ke? eh.. ISO aku lain dr ISO CIDB tu.. ISO aku senang je.. asal ko tak melakukan yg negative sudah ok..

nape aku demand? eh.. ade ke org nk laki yg isap ganja? ade? ade ke org nak laki yg asik² bg makan pelempang.. ade? nauzubillah! aku cerca org yg melakukan mende tu..

aku tak demand harta.. aku tak demand body yg fit.. aku tak demand kete.. aku just demand sesuatu yg dpt meyakinkan yg aku akan bahagia nanti.. tu jer.. simple ma..

hurm.. cakap pasal mende ni buat aku rindu plak nk hangout ngan sorg mamat.. tp.. ish kahena.. tanak nye die nak kuar ngan aku.. sebab well.. im not tyra banks.. im tyre river bank.. huhu..

eventho die tak ckp ape².. eventho die act yg die sgt innocent and baik.. but i knew deep down inside.. die ade strong desire utk pompuan yg cun melecun.. aku ni ape la kan? haaha..

wa tadahal.. teringat je.. wa pon takkan ajak die hangout.. watpe nak menyorongkan juih bibir ini.. hanya utk mendapat tamparan hina.. kan? baik aku kuar sorg.. lepak tgk bintang dpn umah..

aku actually rase lega dpt menulis seme ni.. sebab lately.. aku rase aku tak terluah akan sesuatu.. finally.. terlepas jua.. fuh lega.. cam dpt berak lepas menahan berak utk sejam dua..

and suddenly.. aku tak terase nk jumpe sape².. i think sitting outside n stare to the night sky is better than to pretend not to look so desperate.. haha.. padahal.. aku tak desperate mane.. yeke?

hehehehe.. hamsap betol.. kantoi tak bleh blah.. ala.. it ok kan? as normal human being.. its normal to feel alone and bored when nobody around to cheer u up rite?

nak tgk tv.. astro tade siaran nih.. hujan.. huhu.. nk watpe? urgh.. kembali bosan.. huhuhu.. feels like to type n type sampai word limit.. eh.. ade ke pon limit? hek ele.. hahaha..

okla.. dah byk sgt kerepek aku buat malam ni.. bukan ade yg nk makan pon.. hehe.. esok nk cuci momot.. kasi shine².. biar peluh kuar.. supaya sihat n kuat macam tiger!

it happen on thursday.. uu.. uu..

Yesterday.. my Bapak's Birthday..

Happy Birthday Hj Azizi B Hasan!

moga selalu sihat dan panjang umur serta dimurahkan rezeki..

amin



ok.. nk start ngomel².. td pegi kursus CIDB.. kat Grand Season.. haha.. seharian aku menahan sengguk.. dah le aku duduk first row.. tp speaker tu tak nampak muke aku.. ahhaha.. sebab stand die tu sgt besar.. hehehe.. pastu stage plak sgt tinggi.. hik hik.. muke i terselindung..

yg aku hangen satu badan yer la.. pejabat aku tu ade masalah communication la.. huhuh.. selalu tak clear.. selalu buat aku tertanye².. kang aku terlebih tanye.. ade plak yg anggap aku ni bodoh ya amat plak.. huh!

malam ni.. aku nk diperjelaskan ttg sesuatu.. so aku akan byk bertanye.. if.. tak dijawab.. so aku akan jump to conclusion..

jump jump jump bunny jump!

i mean.. hop bunny hop!

hahaha!




sebab aku malas dah nak syok sendiri dlm dunia fantasi.. padahal that is obviously MY rights kan? tp malas.. malas.. malas..




ok la.. nk pi interbiu.. daa dii duuu..

caffein rush!

urgh.. pening plak.. huhuhu.. minom byk sgt nescafe la.. adeh!

ade org pesan jgn minum nescafe.. minum milo.. huhuhu.. milo 3-in1 ade.. tp aku tak ske.. pastu die suh minom air masak.. which aku tgh buat skrg.. haha.. blog sambil nyelam beb!

keje tade nih.. tp seb baik la bos ajak meeting.. so aku leh jenjalan riang ria.. hahaha.. boleh imagine tak.. aku tade keje.. i mean.. keje dh setel.. siap mintak kat senior aku utk bg keje lg.. tp die kate die buleh handle.. so aku ni dah naik buntu merenung screen pc.. uhuhu.. nak aje aku bukak mangavolume.. tp agak melampau kot.. hahaha!

pasni kol 2.30 aku nk chow pi serdang.. bermeetingan ngan bos.. haha..

kepala aku selalu pening ah.. why ek? aku terase cam mata aku dah makin teruk.. nak pi check cam tade mase.. plus tade duit pon.. bukan check mata free ke? haha.. optical store tu dlm shopping complex kan? of coz aku nk shopping juge.. so.. kalu tade duit.. tak besh ah! huhu..

n one more.. i know that i AM fat.. i got extra fats all over my body.. and please dont think that i like my condition now.. please dont say that i dont want to loose some of those fats.. its not that easy.. so.. say something i dont know ok!


p/s : take it.. or leave it!

its freaky sunday.. eh?

tadi pg kenduri aboy.. dh jadi cam reunion plak.. haha.. most of them aku recognize.. but surely.. they dont remember me.. haha.. but i dont feel bad.. aku kan low profile.. low key.. low yat.. haha.. what the hell.. its not the end of world if they dont know me.. ceh..

semalam asfa called.. nice long chat.. haha.. balik la cepat.. bleh kite vacation same² sambil mengusha mamat² cute.. haha.. yeap.. i admit that i feel terribly down.. pressured.. lost for a while.. outer line.. i look ok.. inner? haha.. im broken to pieces.. hell.. talking bout it wont helping much.. so.. i've decided to gain back all my sense.. and start searching for the best.. yep.. i do love him.. and sometimes.. i miss him.. but him is not the answer for my quest.. am i on a quest? eh!! correction! im actually not in a hurry dear.. tapi bile dah tiba masa.. so.. nak wat cemane? haha..

there is one song that i currently cant stop listening to.. ops.. takleh embed the video clips.. but this song really nice.. nak dgr gak.. then youtube je ok.. hahah..

Artist : Leona Lewis
Title : Better in Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

p/s : dont freak out.. its freking me out..

p/s : esok keje ke? aiseh.. baru nk pegi Bali..

cimeci? ngo emci!

urp.. perut memulas.. tp dah lepak² jamban still takde dpt ape² hasil pelaburan.. huhu.. aku rase maybe aku minum air pearl tadi kat bistro tuh.. adeh.. kembang kuncup perut acik! adakah ianya mengandungi melamine? (saje je nak sebut melamine..) but i like the pearl.. gummy.. i loike!

hari ni hari yg plg bosan gile.. n panas.. 2 botol air kosong licin in an hour.. kering betul tekak saye.. and hari ni jugak hari yg plg mengecewakan.. my application to further study.. rejected! hampeh.. kerek je U yg aku apply nih.. huhuhu.. hampeh!!

some of my conversation with the admin staff U tersebut..

nisa : saye nk tau la saye dpt or not..
O : course yg cik amik?
nisa : Master in Civil Environmental
O : oo.. course work ye?
nisa : yep..
O : nama cik?
nisa : -pnc-
O : owh.. no ic.. (she recite my IC no.. and aku dah excited.. sambil tgn buat aksi 'YES!!')
nisa : yep yep..
O : permohonan anda.. (berdebar² gile!) GAGAL..

korg tau.. aku terus patah hati.. rase nk nangis pon ade.. rase nk kuar je dr opis pon ade.. rase nk baling receiver phone tu pon ade.. seme la ade.. seb baik tade sape yg wat lawak kering ngan aku mase tu.. mmg kompom aku siku dlm hati.. huhu..

aiseh.. dugaan no 2.. hahaha.. huhuhu.. hehehe.. sebabnye aku tak cukup 2 thn kerja.. takpe².. tunggu next year.. siap ko.. baru tau sape kerek.. urgh!!! tension! bikin hati wa calar balar!

aku tgh ade perasaan nak sambung study ni.. larat lagi nak isi form pastu mintak² signature ni.. tak dpt lak masuk.. huhuh.. ergh! kang kalu dah malas nak belajo.. malas dh nk gi kelas.. hingin ke aku nk sambung? ergh! ni dugaan yg aku rase agak mencabar.. huhu..

binci!
binci!
binci!

lately rase cepat je mase berlalu.. baru je rase semalam baru jumaat.. tgk² hari ni dah jumaat juge? Hiro Nakamura kah saya? nope.. im a girl.. hahaha.. aku sgt depressed.. so malam ni terapi baik punye.. huh!





my new signature for email : .Living IS Believing.

poyomon with the big P!






p/s : sometimes i want to question.. why? why? why? but after a thought or two.. i just swallowed it.. for my own good..

im a proud single woman

almost hit and been hit by car tadi.. urgh! need to be more careful! i tak kawen lagi ok! sile berhati²! haha.. adeh.. bile dh nk terlanggar.. baru rase kecut telur eventho aku takde telor yg boleh mengecut.. huhuhu..

eh.. terlucah plak.. aha.. cakap pasal lucah.. ade mamat kat opis ni.. die kire baru masuk la sebab lewat sebulan dr aku.. eh.. baru le tu.. tp yg aku agak terkijat.. die leh wat lawak lucah plak.. er.. perlu kah?

weekly routine dak² opis aku yerla main futsal di malam hari jumaat.. ni duk kalut² la kompemkan pegi ke tak.. n nak dijadikan kisah.. mamat lagi sorg ni takleh join.. pastu korang tau ape mamat baru ni cakap? die ckp.. 'alah.. nak main bola sendirik kat umah le tu..' i was like.. 'what the f*ck?' (dalam hati) dah le aku tgh berdiri antara mereka berdua.. ergh! hello! eskusmi.. ko ingat aku pekak ke? tak malu ke? ish².. maybe ko tak malu.. tapi aku yg mendengar ni malu plak..

hadeh..

payah tol la org dirty minded.. mende simple pon nk dilucahkan.. huh!

tapi bak kate fiza.. laki yg dah kawen ni.. mmg tak sah kalu tak sebut mende lucah seharian.. mesti gatal la mulut nk berlucahan.. aiseh.. tercemar pemikiran acik yg suci nih!

some of org² di opis dah tau perihal peribadi aku.. so what? aku tak rase ape².. haha.. aku dah kensel dh baju tunang tu.. save bajet.. haha.. and.. ehemm.. ehemm.. aku nak umumkan ye.. aku sedikit pon tak rase segan.. or malu.. or tersipu² dgn keadaan aku.. mmg aku tak jadi tunang.. so what? it his lost.. not mine.. he decided.. so i also made up my mind.. what ever it takes.. we will never be together..

so im proudly inform that im single.. and very available.. sila beratur ye abg².. wakakak! ehemm.. kalu ade abg sedare ke.. abg ipar ke.. sepupu sepapat yg kiut lagi kacak.. kaya pon kaya la.. i tak memilih.. pastu sebaya or tua dr saye.. rekemen lah yek.. hahaha.. i kesepian ni.. eww.. geli mat!?

and bagi laki kategori sengal yg dah 'in relationships' aku advice.. get ur ass ready baybeh! make up ur mind.. please dont hurt those that put high hopes on u.. and please be extra patient.. u need it to get through this phase.. for girls plak.. pijak je leher dorg kalu ngade² sgt.. eh.. bukan.. bukan.. tolerate.. tu je..


p/s : left my phone at office.. hurm.. tolong kejut pagi nnt ek..

me today.. hopefully just for today..

im at my office.. kerja? kerja la.. but.. takde kerja sgt.. i was hoping my senior ckp camni 'nisa.. bleh tolong tak? bla bla bla..' huhu.. aku bosan.. bile bosan.. aku jadi bengang sebab aku pening kepala kene pikir ape je yg aku nk wat ni?? huhuhu..

kecoh plak nisa ni..

hurm.. aku ingat nk pegi theme park la.. uhu.. aku aim.. water world melaka.. nk naik yg slide yg tinggi tu.. dr highway pon leh nampak slide tu.. hihihi.. ade bran? hek hek..

sape yg nk ikot?

err.. errr.. sape?



boring..

malam tadi penat gile.. tido awal.. kol 8pm dah tersembam.. terbangun kol 9pm lebih.. online jap.. dah abis routine online dibuat tp still boring.. lalu aku ketiduran semula.. huhuhu..

ah! skrg pon boring nih.. ergh! dh la lapar nih.. bile la nk pukul 1? come on! huhu!

tadi tetibe aku nye network down.. org lain ok je.. apesal ek? huhu.. takkan on yahoomail tak leh? aku skrg gune wire connection lain.. huhu.. bored!

okla.. aku nk cari something to eat.. starving!



p/s: attn to kekasihan.. aku tak suke di-tak-pedulikan..

the way to be fat littered with good fast food.. urgh!

hurm.. last saturday i had to go to office.. sampai opis layan nasik lemak n nescafe o.. pastu dpt sms dr sue.. cik sue kite ajak teman die potong rambut.. so kol 12 aku dah setel keje kat opis.. lalu balik le ke rumah sesiap.. then cup cap cup cap.. siap! nak gi gunting rambut!

sampai je kedai gunting rambut.. belek² rambut ini.. sayang plak nk gunting.. hahaha! so cuci n blow aje.. tp tak syok sgt.. i nak salon yg buat highlite aku tu.. cantik!!

pas gunting.. kami ke OU.. n lepak kat Chllis Bar & Grill.. yum yum!! (zatul.. jgn jeles!) haha! aku makan old timer burger with cheese.. and.. it was gigantic! huhu.. sue makan tacos.. sgt marveles n aku dah kembung.. gile lah!

pastu kami jalan² sampai rase lapar balik.. haha.. gile tak?

sampai umah kol 8 lebih.. sesiap nk gi umah mak yan ♥ cik a'a kat usj.. berdesap desup.. hik hik.. aku overnite kat umah depa.. malam tu ingat nk layan wall.e tp i ngantuk tak hengat.. huhuhu.. pastu yg plg menduga yerla.. bile opah chu tanye kenduri tunang bile.. wakaka.. aiseh.. tak jadi la opah.. memule die ingat aku memain.. adeh.. hik hik..

aku rase aku ni leh kembang ni.. khamis lepas makan pizza hut.. thanx to razi ♥ zatul.. friday mkn McD ngan neena n kak emi.. (ni cite pjg ni.. malas nk story..) sabtu makan chillis.. bagus kan? hahaha.. ahad lepak umah mak yan.. pergh.. non-stop woo makan aje.. abes la.. wakakak!

actually teringin nk jumpe baby dania.. huhu.. tp tak sempat.. takpe la.. next time la ye..



leg note :

kene keje ke esok? sabtu dah gi keje dah.. huhu..