birthday Oh birthday..

4th of August come again.. another year has been passed by.. im one year older today.. but i didnt feel any different.. i felt nothing.. just like another ordinary day.. except for today.. i received wishes that prays for my happiness.. all i can say is thank you..

and by this 4th of August.. it has been 7 months me and encik Ed been as a couple.. i am so grateful celebrating this than my own birthday.. with him.. all my wishes come true.. as i only wish to see him happy and love me so much.. cuz he is happy and he is loving me..

but it will make me happier if November come gracefully easy.. and the days.. months.. years after that.. will make my life even more happy..

however.. wishing so much without put some efforts in it is total useless.. so make use of those bones and fats in urself!


hehe..


last 2 months.. approximately.. i think i accidentally watch Oprah Winfrey Show.. the subject was.. 'Life without Complaints'.. quite interesting when the speaker explain what the hell is complaints and why we shud reduce it..

then he introduced the 'complaint wrist rubber straps'.. how it helps? u wear it at one hand.. and whenever u complaining.. u have to remove the wrist straps from one hand to ur another hand and start counting the 'Day without complaining : __' ehehe.. nice ya?

the objective here is to gain the maximum days that u can control urself from complaining.. and when u can control it.. u will get use to it.. and hopefully in one fine day.. u r no-complainer person!

why must we reduce the complaints actually? it helps to make us a more positive-minded person.. person that try and try to be successful without nagging.. it is very useful for person who want to go from sub-pro to real-pro..

and believe me.. others hate it when u complaining.. haha.. ya la.. when people giving their best (or not) in anything they done.. they really dont want to hear any bad or negative about it.. well who does? but when we really do need to complaint.. just convert the complaint to advices..

example :
'u didnt do it properly.. cakes are not suppose to be baked like this!'

instead of saying that.. why not u say..
'if u use the right amount of eggs.. the cakes will bloom beautifully and u will like it that way!'

can u see the different?



haha.. picking up the right lines.. with the right tone.. u just make a cake baker more ambitious than turn him/her into ashes.. or what i mean here is breaking his/her heart.. ehehe..

when u hurt a person.. most of them (who cant seem to accept critics) will hate u.. or maybe let u eat the un-properly baked cakes.. hehe.. for some person that really positive minded.. ur words is not a big deal.. but that species of human being is already extinct..

and why suddenly when im turning 26.. im a person with positive attitude? hmm.. maybe im tired of complaining? or maybe i want to make my life more surround with positive environment than the negatives? or maybe im trying to act wiser? or maybe my hormones?


hahaha..

i dunno.. maybe its time..



i've seen real-pro people do their work.. example : my Big Boss.. we had this 2-3 years research of wastewater management for a part of one big catchment.. already come out with bright solutions and we proposed everything that seems make sense and cost effective.. everything seems OK and the thought of the client approving the proposal is always in our mind..

however.. one fine day.. they send a letter.. asking to re-study everything.. and want the answer in a week.. my Oh my.. i was so frustrated.. i complained almost everything bout it.. why? how? why not?!

believe me.. almost everything.. im so frustrated.. i forwarded the letter to my Big Boss hoping nothing the less that he will act like me.. frowning and frustrating..

to my surprise.. he straight-forward come out with the new plan to re-study.. and ask me to see is it reasonable what the client has been suggesting.. seriously.. zero complaint!

i was really amazed!



at that time.. i can see the different between complainer and non-complainer.. the professionalism gap.. and from that i can see.. how am i being not like-able and how my Big Boss is being respect and praised!

i want to be like him..


i really want people to think of me not as a complainer.. or person that nags and surrounded with negative thoughts and ions.. i want they to see me as a positive-minded person..


but.. from my blog entries.. i think 70% of it is complaints! ahahaha! adeyai.. i think i really need the rubber wrist straps.. haha.. as starter.. hehehe..


but i couldnt recall.. whether if complaining to myself is OK? haha.. okla kot kan? for starting maybe i can complain anything to myself.. not to others.. hehe.. like that people wont hate me aite? ahaha..



ok.. enough of this.. lately i have sleeping problem.. always waken up 2-3am in the morning.. and after that.. i just cant continue sleeping.. hoh.. insomnia? with insomnia.. u cant even sleep.. i slept.. but not enough.. hmm.. huhu..

tomorrow.. i mean later today.. got some site visits.. maybe tiring but hopefully more ok.. rather than staying in office pressuring my face into the PC screen.. its better go outside breathing fresh air.. rite?

by the way.. my poor eyesight is become poorer! increased from 375 to 425! hoh! better eat more carrots.. eat more black current.. more oranges.. huhu!

okla people.. my head spinning.. i need to rest my eyes..




anyway.. happy happy 26th birthday to me!

as known also as my 5th 21st birthday!!
miahaha!

p/s : u r the gift i always wanted.. i really love u..