Crushed..

semalam pas maghrib pg tgk umah tu.. the feeling was.. crushed.. ape tak nye.. previous tenant mmg membawa budaya setinggan ke rumah itu.. the house actually was nice.. big! but the last tenant perangai cam haram..

tak dpt bygkan.. dorg dh duduk kat umah tu for more than 1 year.. and left the house 2 days ago.. but the condition macam tempat tu tak pernah diduduki.. tiles tercabut.. bilik air out! dapur out! tombol pintu hilang/rosak.. rumah penuh lipas n tahi lipas n tahi cicak.. what?!

mmg macam rumah tinggal.. TAPI.. owner ckp.. dorg br kuar 2 hari lepas.. sial betol kan? dasar org biase hidup merempat.. dah dpt rumah ok.. tp die bawak budaya rempat ke situ.. aih.. termengutuk lebih plak.. hohoho..

mmg crushed.. location dah cun.. size dh marv.. tp condition sux.. walaucemane pon.. aku tetap duk situ sbb dah tinggal sebulan aje kan.. pastu dah kawtim ngan owner.. bajet repair minus sewa la.. ahaha!

owner suh repair/deco sendiri.. so aku ckp.. potong sewa la.. miahahah!



eish! benci betol! mmg crushed sampai mood lari.. kesian encik Ed.. memule die yg down tgk condition tu.. aku ok lagi.. semangat.. lame2 mood die tu menular ke aku.. mood semangat aku pegi ke die.. masalahnye.. mood tak besh aku ni stuck lame kat aku.. sampai takleh tido..

dunno why.. kol 6am br bleh tido.. sebelum tu semangat polish syiling.. tp dah buring ngan bau terazzo.. aku tukar tgk tv.. pastu online.. sampai kul 3am.. aku naik tido.. tp guling sane.. pusing sini.. tak mau lelap.. turun bwh balik.. tgk tv.. tp takleh..

last2 kol 5am lebih.. dgr org baca Al-Quran.. br ku naik bilik n lelap.. susah.. kol 6 br doozed.. huhu.. sejam kemudian.. bangun n siap2 nk gi kerja.. sejam lebih je aku tido.. ape kes?



malam ni nk date.. tp nk date penuh keceriaan.. bleh tak bb?





p/s : toti dah tak blk umah.. ape nk jd anak dara tak balik umah ni?

homie~

good news we received yesterday.. semalam tgh duk teman encik Ed kat Ampcorp Mall.. received sms saying that the old tenant already moved out.. kunci ada pada owner.. so nk tgk bile2 bleh!

owh.. by the way.. im talking about our house gonnabe.. eheheh!

semalam tak sempat nk pg tgk.. by the way dah malam sgt.. so malam ni dh set time nk pg tgk after maghrib.. known that the floor got prob.. but its ok.. hopefully we can manage to repair it.. and i want to negotiate la to cut the rent when we repair it..

yela.. kan?

am doing the right thing aite? ehehe.. memule the old tenant ckp nk kuar by 15th Nov.. encik Ed dah cuak.. sbb 15th tu dh dekat benor dgn tarikh pernikahan.. huhu! so takut double busy-ness..

by this weekend dh bleh pindah masuk brg.. brg2 aku sekali lah.. ehehhe.. besh nyer!!!



p/s : die tak abis2 ckp nk cat rumah.. cat la bb.. eheh..

feels good..

bilik pengantin? CHECKED! ekeke! setel kemas bilik pengantin! yippie! hurray! ehehe.. today bangun cam lewat sket.. dlm kul 9.30am.. bgn2 melantak dulu then start kemas2.. kul 4 camtu Encik Ed ajak minum2.. so lepak la sat.. sampai kul 5.. kejap jer.. lepas tu terus sambung blk keje2 mengemas.. plg seksa pasang langsir! damn! leher cramp woo..

malam ni.. acik tido bilik baru.. bilik lame acik.. dah jd bilik toti.. ekeke!

seronok tau bile tgk bilik tu kemas.. lega! kalau tak.. serabut!! owh lupe nk bgtau.. tadi mase date ngan Encik Ed.. aku pegi la Speedmarket 99 tu.. ade la trio nigga.. tetibe duk dekat2 ngan aku then die tegur.. 'hi.. how r u?' aku buat tak hapik je la.. terus cr Encik Ed.. bile die nampak Encik Ed.. die blah..

hek ele.. ingat gentle la tu.. chit!!

die tak baca news kot.. yg org Malaysia skrg tgh hangen dgn kaum die.. yaperda.. aku lagi hangin.. nak nak baca berita pasal baby Aaliyah tu! damn u laki Sudan yg gila!

ok la.. maleh nk cite..


skrg cube teka aku tgh watpe selain blogging.. acik tgh chat ngan pakcik Ed la.. ape lagi.. miahahahha!

esok nk date.. nkbeli deco2 utk hantaran.. seronoknye! pastu nk masak lunch for him! ehehe! die dah order2 dh tu.. ekekek! hmm.. tak sabanye nk jumpe die.. haih.. nak kawen ni melampau2 lak rase nye.. bak kate Encik Ed.. mengalahkan laki bini.. ekekeke!

ok peeps.. off to bed.. Encik Ed pon mau pulang ke rumah dah.. ok bb.. drive safe.. love u..


p/s : u laki.. i bini kan?

history

ok.. Encik Ed mmg ada history.. and his history kadang2 menghantui aku.. hmm.. kadang2 cam tak percaya.. kadang2 aku tertanye2.. why? kadang aku rase bleh terima.. kadang2 aku rase shit! kadang2 aku rase damn!

tp selalunye aku rase.. thank goodness that all was already passed.. and we can start fresh thing together.. i really2 need to forget about his past.. he need to.. but he couldnt.. i understand why he couldnt do that.. but i really wish he can.. really2 wish.. but.. if he really want to forget about the past.. he still really2 cant..


and i 100% understand why..


but what i hate the most is when a person from his past treat him badly.. even now n then.. i really hate that person so much.. he is now an important person to me.. and no one.. i mean.. NO single person can be tolerable to treat my precious somebody like shit..

respect is necessary if u want to deal with him.. cuz from that i will respect u.. or.. else way.. currently.. the person that so fucked up tu masih treat my beloved encik Ed badly.. with no respect and with low-down attitude.. i hated so much that person from his past.. i really do.. if i see that person in person.. maybe a punch on this person nose would give me some delightful moment in my life.. if breaking the person pair of teeth maybe add some joyfulness in my life..

u treat people like shit.. u will get shit.. its karma.. well.. i can see that u r already receiving ur karma for treating him badly in past.. changes of person that convinced themselves that they love n care for u.. but hell.. all they need is lust breaker.. kasihan.. but in present and future.. over my dead body first.. dare touch him or break his heart.. i'll do the same thing..

watchout.. i dont do omong kosong like BENDERA did..



p/s : after our marriage.. i'll took care of everything.. wanna deal? deal with me..


p/s : all i wanna do is having a great life marrying person that i love without interferences from shit-headed people from his past..

bila rindu..

saya dan encik Ed dah masuk kategori belangkas :).. ahaha.. segala aktiviti mesti nk buat same2.. kecuali kerja la.. ehehe.. pegi mane2 mesti berdua.. well.. berduakan lebih baik.. tp bile terpaksa berjauhan.. kami masih lakukan aktiviti bersama.. nak tau ape aktiviti kami bile berjauhan dan rindu rinduan? sila scroll down..

ni mase malam sblm raya..
his location : Ipoh
my location : KL

internet jd penghubung..


Encik Ed pm : tak abeh2 ngambik gamba..


aku pm : layankan aje la bang.. ahaha!

ni mase malam raya kedua

ok.. aku nk tegaskan eh.. die takde buat aksi sexy disini.. ehehe! die baring sbb penat beraya.. haha!

ni malam khamis lepas..
his location : LaZeez
my location : home living hall

he's showing his dimple..


sampai kol 2.30am kami duk webchat.. esok pagi kerja tuu.. ahaha!

hehe.. semakin nk kawen.. semakin kami rase lovey dovey.. which i love! ehehe.. takleh tak jumpe la.. last week.. the whole 7 days.. kami jumpe je.. ehehe.. well.. practice makes perfect kan.. ehehe.. try n error dulu.. nnt dh duk serumah.. kire cam dah serasi lah tgk muke memasing.. haha!

p/s : 38 days to go!

tak kasi can..

seminggu aku blk lewat.. seminggu juge aku date lewat.. seminggu jugalah aku tido kol 3am lebih.. sebab nk menyiapkan report huru hara utk JPP tu..

today.. aku dah setel insert design and submit.. SETEL..


tp ku sangka cerah hingga ke petang.. sekali hujan daaaa.. nk kene buat amendment! argh! semua sbb kecuaian sendiri.. which i hate so much! terlampau byk mende dlm otak kan.. tu yg kelibut semacam..

tp tak byk la.. ada 11 drawing yg aku miss letak summarized strategy.. but still!!! demmit! nk kene buat 3 copy of amendment and sent to 2 different client.. argh! plg ku tak suke bile dh submit ade amendment.. yela.. dh la project ni asik amend2 aje.. sekali yg final pon nk kene amend gak?


bingai la!!


malam ni aku nk berjimbo jimba ngan encik Ed.. no no! aku takmo pikir pasal keje.. aku keje isnin-jumaat je.. dorg byr aku 20 hari.. aku keje 20 hari..


eh.. dah lebih masa kerja.. mau pulang ke kota..





p/s : dah jumpe umah at cheras.. tak tgk lagi.. but dh kawtim kompem masuk ngan owner.. miahaha!

pinya calada! i need sleep!

lately.. i mean.. almost 3-4 nights before.. include tonight.. i cant seem to get good sleep.. why? i dunno.. maybe because of workload at office.. when i sleep.. i dream about maps.. gis.. letters and microsoft word.. huhu.. workaholic? no.. nope.. im not that kind of person.. huhu..

i even woke up in the middle of the night just to check why my alarm not set off yet.. terrifying!! im not excited to go to office.. but i have to go.. huu.. i have to get up and take my morning bath eventho i want to lay in the bed forever.. huhu..

at office.. times flew dramatically fast.. thot it only 10am.. but its already 1pm.. everyday.. same thing.. no time to eat.. i dont eat lunch nowaday.. i eat heavy bfast.. huh.. and by the end of the day.. i feel so hungry so i eat everything.. great huh?

and past 2 days i have this nausea kind of feeling in my throat and stomach.. i dunno why.. at first because of the filthy food i ate.. maybe thats the sequences? i dunno.. hopefully tomorrow everything will be ok..

what things that can make my day tomorrow?
1. got the SBR design
2. finish print and bind 3 reports and burn the soft copy
3. finish the landuse report (ah Chai aaa.. when u want to email me the factory layout?)
4. tell my mom the good news she want to hear..
5. see Encik Ed again :)

i like no 5 lot more than the others.. ahaha!


ok beb.. i think i must try to sleep.. at least lying on my bed.. so my body can rest eventho my brain cant stop thinking.. huhu..


nite people.. have a beautiful dream!




p/s : encik Ed.. u r treating me like princess!

demmit!

nak berniaga buat la cam nk berniaga.. dah nama pon meniaga makanan.. tp hampeh.. lepas makan je aku terus muntah at opis.. adoi! bile aku ckp ngan dak yg makan same td.. die ckp.. byk telur lalat yg die nampak.. dem!

aku tanak pg lagi dh la kedai tu.. eventho plg dekat ngan opis.. tp kalau camtu lah gaya nk berniaga.. thanx but NO thanx.. dem!

sampai skrg aku rase nk muntah.. actually dah 2 kali aku muntah.. ni tgh pening2.. aku tgh menahan aje nih.. dem!

pastu byk keje nk setelkan.. nk buat landuse map.. dah la ngan kepala pening2.. org berckp tak henti2 pastu kuat2.. mata aku cam dh naik juling plak tgk lot2 yg halus ni.. dem!



argh!

aku nk pg baring sat la.. perut aku bergelodak2 dlm ni.. argh!



DEMMIT!



p/s : nasib baik ptg ni jumpe Encik Ed.. nk pg tgk rumah.. hoyeh!

the obvious sign..

hhmm..

bile aku pegi mane2.. shopping ke.. supermarket ke.. bank ke.. kedai makan ke.. kebanyakkan org akan panggil aku puan.. which aku terase offended sgt.. maybe the way aku pakai tudung kot.. plus my size yg mmg cam mak org..

tapi yg aku betul2 rase.. mmg aku ni ptt sgt kawin is when.. dalam email pon org leh address aku as puan tu yg ajaib tu.. jumpe pon tak pernah.. maybe the way i arrange my sentence ke? aiyo..

well.. another 50 days.. i am puan.. so i think this is pre-puan practice la kot.. ekekke..




td lepak mapley.. cari umah ngan Encik Ed.. sux la wifi.. lembab.. maybe next week pi tgk umah.. ehehe.. kalau ok.. terus masuk..

td juge ade kes tak besh terjadi di opis.. sorg drpd staff kene kick out.. sbb wat hal ngan account.. demm.. aiyo.. tolong la bersyukur dgn ape yg ada.. and please beringat sebelum terkena.. huhu..

esok nk pi umah mak yan.. again? well.. this time ade mission.. huhu.. girl's mission.. pastu nk swim2.. dah lame tak swim2.. ekeke! pastu nk pass dulang to her.. hmm.. excitednyer saye!!













p/s : seriously.. i cant wait!!!

parapap papa! em levinit!

bile pagi2 dpt sms camni..

'wanna luv u wit all my heart + tamo bg u sakit hati.. :)'

mmg seronok!

lovely pic that show exactly what i feel.. HAPPY..
fabs pic from lagodirgada

semalam berlaku sedikit ketidak puasan hati.. sedikit kesedihan melanda la.. tp kejap je.. encik Ed pandai pujuk.. woah! sejak bile die pandai pujuk ni? ahaha! besh3..

td pegi puchong.. meeting.. esok pegi puchong lg.. site visit factory.. tapi takpe.. kereja ma.. ahaha! esok ade dateline anta checklist.. tp the Big Boss wat tak hapik je? hmm.. guano demo?

adeh.. saket ulu hempedu!




p/s : bile boring.. baca sms2 jiweng ni naik kan syahwat! eh! semangat! silap plak.. ekeke!

seriously..

please dont bother looking for me to tell shites.. shites that u shitted.. ok? i am too happy to share any of shites today.. no offense but please go away..





p/s : suddenly i feel like shit!

p/s : need Eddie boy..