wake up please! thank god u have me instead of some other girl yg lagi sengal ok! i couldnt accept this kind humiliation! u think im being ngade² all this time becoz im a weak girl that cannot stand up for herself? hello! think again! im a very smart chick.. and im not THAT low minded.. i did all that to show that im fond of u.. but the thing get terribly messed up caused by u.. n u so hard to think positively..
guy sometimes so idiot.. they dont know what they had.. until they lost it.. but why must u loose something to realize that u need 'em? argh! thats freaking mad! but tu la manusia.. maybe i should go away.. leave him for a while.. to let him think.. how stupid he was.. how humiliated i was.. how could he treated me like this.. like a wasted chemical.. no! (even wasted chemical pon diorg treat nicely) like ppl that has no means to him.. like tunggul la sonang cito..
u know.. when ppl in love.. they tend to show silly sign to express love.. like.. smsing like 5 times in an hour.. or call every hour just to her their voice.. but when i did all that.. i was labeled as parasites that sucking his blood n nerves! what?! again.. what?! am i the silly one to felt offended by that behavior?? am i the silly one? am i having major sensitivity? tell me ppl..
i have my own limits.. n i dont know how much longer i can stand this nonsense.. if u dont want to have someone bugging u all the time.. so let have none.. so u can live happily ever after alone.. i dont need someone to harrasing my imagination in loving.. i dont need someone to potong the stim.. huh! go away..
this is very hard.. to live with person that have hard head.. everything that i think is smoochie² cute is something that he neednt in relationships.. so u want it to be formal? or what? i dont get it? our point of view in loving is different.. way too different.. i thought i can survive it.. so i tried not to do the silly² love thingy.. (eg : saying i love u.. or miss u..) but i just cant help it.. its something i that i need to hear.. thought he need to hear it too.. but no.. he neednt that.. all he want was.. me laugh at his jokes.. i did laugh.. but.. what about me? i realized that im doing this HIS WAY.. n i tried to control the boringness.. so when i get so bored i do it MY WAY.. but.. he get so frustrated.. i was like.. what? why? how come? what is it actually?
its difficult n hard.. ngan sape lagi? ngan sape lagi aku nk begitu? kang aku begitu ngan org lain kang! eeee.. i hate it!
25 February 2008
petang yang jiwang..
after pekena ikan kembung bakar bersama kuah asam yg agak marveles di Padang Sri Serdang.. wa terase.. yang wa mmg merindui makanan itu.. ahhaha.. dah seminggu lebih kot wa tak makan ikan bakar.. huhu..
and lepas tu of coz la.. wa terase ngantuk ya amat!!! rase nk guling² je.. thats why la im avoiding taking lunch.. cuz it will makes me feel so dem sleepy taw! huhu.. tapi.. seb baik la wa ade lab yg pelu disetelkan.. so ngantuk ka.. tak ngantuk ka.. keje mesti jalan.. hik hik..
so after masuk lab.. virus ngantuk tu mule menjalar balik ke setiap pelusuk ateri pulmonari aku.. i was like 'Oh! this cant be!! i cant be sleepy again! too much!' poyoz tak? haha.. tp tu ah.. ngantuk seh.. rase nk berguling² sambil didodoi lagu bukan rayuan gombal by judika.. hahaha.. (tgh pasang mp3 jap) ah! best!
'dengarkan lah.. aku cinta.. ingin aku.. selalu menjaga diri mu.. menemani disetiap waktu.. dengarlah sayangku.. tiada yang lain saat ini.. engkau lah yg ada dihati.. engkau lah yg ada di hati.. bla bla bla..'
best woo.. layanzz.. sape² yg rock tapi jiwang cam aku ni.. bleh la bg lagu ni kat kekasih hati.. tapi wa takmo bg kat encik stefeni.. sbb aku nk bg lagu lain ke dio.. aku nok dedicate lagu naff - akhir nya aku menemukan mu.. asik woo.. eh.. jap ek.. wa nk check reactor wa.. tah² dah melotup dah ni.. ish² wait² arr.. be back soon..
okeh.. im back.. so pasni wa nak naik fakulti jap.. nk kene tanda tutorial la plak.. so.. adios amigoz..
and lepas tu of coz la.. wa terase ngantuk ya amat!!! rase nk guling² je.. thats why la im avoiding taking lunch.. cuz it will makes me feel so dem sleepy taw! huhu.. tapi.. seb baik la wa ade lab yg pelu disetelkan.. so ngantuk ka.. tak ngantuk ka.. keje mesti jalan.. hik hik..
so after masuk lab.. virus ngantuk tu mule menjalar balik ke setiap pelusuk ateri pulmonari aku.. i was like 'Oh! this cant be!! i cant be sleepy again! too much!' poyoz tak? haha.. tp tu ah.. ngantuk seh.. rase nk berguling² sambil didodoi lagu bukan rayuan gombal by judika.. hahaha.. (tgh pasang mp3 jap) ah! best!
'dengarkan lah.. aku cinta.. ingin aku.. selalu menjaga diri mu.. menemani disetiap waktu.. dengarlah sayangku.. tiada yang lain saat ini.. engkau lah yg ada dihati.. engkau lah yg ada di hati.. bla bla bla..'
best woo.. layanzz.. sape² yg rock tapi jiwang cam aku ni.. bleh la bg lagu ni kat kekasih hati.. tapi wa takmo bg kat encik stefeni.. sbb aku nk bg lagu lain ke dio.. aku nok dedicate lagu naff - akhir nya aku menemukan mu.. asik woo.. eh.. jap ek.. wa nk check reactor wa.. tah² dah melotup dah ni.. ish² wait² arr.. be back soon..
okeh.. im back.. so pasni wa nak naik fakulti jap.. nk kene tanda tutorial la plak.. so.. adios amigoz..
seperti lapar + vacation planning = saket perut la plak
it was indeed a very lazy and wasted weekend.. hahaha.. aku jarang tido siang.. (tido sampai siang n tido siang is different..) but last sunday.. after online kejap.. aku terus tido dibuai lagu anuar zain.. n it was so heavenly.. 2 hours felt like 2 days.. bangun² je wa turun.. tgk tv plak.. mmg hari yg bermalas²an.. hihi.. tgk tv pon sambil makan cheesecake tu.. wah².. mmg hari yg MALAS..
tapi bile dah tersedar yg aku ni asik duk makan n tgk tv.. ptg tu wa pasang CD cindy crawford.. wat la sikit².. kuar la peluh.. hihi.. tapi sampai part kaki jer la.. dah tak larat dah.. hahaha.. teruk betul ler.. takpe.. ptg ni buat lagi.. hahaha.. then after mandi all.. tgk tv balik.. haisehmen.. nape aku yg dulunye amat membenci TV skrg suda mula nk melekat ni? aku benci TV bukan ape.. aku benci iklan di TV.. aku jadi rimas.. every 10 minutes.. iklan.. mane tahan? example si ntv7 tu.. every 10 mins.. poyo seh.. tv3 plak iklan senantiasa ade.. yerla.. tetibe ko punye skrin dikecilkan.. sbb nk bg ruang iklan kat bhgn tepi.. bawah.. atas.. gile la.. rtm1 n rtm2 plak.. asik lagu lagu lagu.. boring.. tv9? lagi lah.. tak abes² ngan cite indon die tuh.. asik² cite si nabila tu lagi.. pastu kalu evil.. evil bangat.. busannn... rumah wa mmg tade astro.. sbb tade sape yg sudi nk sapot.. hahahha.. so kesudahannye.. aku layan dvd je.. n semalam tu nk tgk cite heroes.. walaupun aku dah tgk dah.. tp saje nk ulang tayang balik..
hurm.. aku seperti lapar.. tapi nnt la.. busan ni.. boring.. memacam la.. this month gaji masuk on 29th.. yeay.. harap² la.. hihihi.. so far no prob la.. yerla.. tha boss plak suke la bagi job di akhir² bulan.. time wa sedikit sesak la die nk bg job.. huhuhu.. ape lagi.. kene postpone la kejap.. huhu.. tidak ku minta jadi begini.. huhu..
so.. setelah dipikirin.. aku rase.. aku seperti mau resign la vacay² bersama teman² klang.. hurm.. sebab²nye tak leh direveal di sini.. sbb terlalu confidential to me.. hahaha.. adelah masalah dalaman.. huhu.. n wa terpaksela mencari partner baru.. haisehmen.. encik stefeni mengoffer diri.. tp TANAK.. aku nk perempuan please.. ade tak sesape yg suke travel²? wa bajet nk pg kelantan n terengganu la by this june or july.. before the monsun season la.. wa mau layan pulau!!!
criteria awek² yg nak join :
1. org yg pernah ku kenal
2. buleh dipercayai + jujur
3. buas (suke ektiviti lasak seperti nek beskal pi merayau on the island or naik jetski or layan snuker dlm air)
4. gile² (seperti suke karaoke sampai saket tekak)
5. suke diambil gambarnye (sbb wa suke amik gamba)
6. open minded
7. sempoi (tak cerewet in makan or tempat landing)
8. ade bajet (yg ni plg penting.. suppose letak kat no 1 la..)
tapi if ade yg nk membawa kaum yg lagi satu.. wa tadahal.. make sure criteria tetap ditepati la.. n one more.. trip ini utk rase gembira hey.. so.. wa tanak ade sekelumit rase tak best diakhir rancangan.. haha.. poyos je.. so.. nk pg kelantan sbb nk pg umah chipah.. then ajak die lepak terengganu kt pulau perhentian.. hahaha! kalu 3-4 org pun dah best.. hihihi.. seronok.. dah ajak sue.. tapi.. entah..
tapi wa mmg nak PEGI!!! dah start kompol asset dah ni.. ahhahaha.. ajak si kapel yg baru kawen ok gak tuh.. leh la dorg honeymoon.. n dorg pun aku rase jenis yg sempoi n lasak.. haha.. will ask them la.. hurm.. asik!
tapi bile dah tersedar yg aku ni asik duk makan n tgk tv.. ptg tu wa pasang CD cindy crawford.. wat la sikit².. kuar la peluh.. hihi.. tapi sampai part kaki jer la.. dah tak larat dah.. hahaha.. teruk betul ler.. takpe.. ptg ni buat lagi.. hahaha.. then after mandi all.. tgk tv balik.. haisehmen.. nape aku yg dulunye amat membenci TV skrg suda mula nk melekat ni? aku benci TV bukan ape.. aku benci iklan di TV.. aku jadi rimas.. every 10 minutes.. iklan.. mane tahan? example si ntv7 tu.. every 10 mins.. poyo seh.. tv3 plak iklan senantiasa ade.. yerla.. tetibe ko punye skrin dikecilkan.. sbb nk bg ruang iklan kat bhgn tepi.. bawah.. atas.. gile la.. rtm1 n rtm2 plak.. asik lagu lagu lagu.. boring.. tv9? lagi lah.. tak abes² ngan cite indon die tuh.. asik² cite si nabila tu lagi.. pastu kalu evil.. evil bangat.. busannn... rumah wa mmg tade astro.. sbb tade sape yg sudi nk sapot.. hahahha.. so kesudahannye.. aku layan dvd je.. n semalam tu nk tgk cite heroes.. walaupun aku dah tgk dah.. tp saje nk ulang tayang balik..
hurm.. aku seperti lapar.. tapi nnt la.. busan ni.. boring.. memacam la.. this month gaji masuk on 29th.. yeay.. harap² la.. hihihi.. so far no prob la.. yerla.. tha boss plak suke la bagi job di akhir² bulan.. time wa sedikit sesak la die nk bg job.. huhuhu.. ape lagi.. kene postpone la kejap.. huhu.. tidak ku minta jadi begini.. huhu..
so.. setelah dipikirin.. aku rase.. aku seperti mau resign la vacay² bersama teman² klang.. hurm.. sebab²nye tak leh direveal di sini.. sbb terlalu confidential to me.. hahaha.. adelah masalah dalaman.. huhu.. n wa terpaksela mencari partner baru.. haisehmen.. encik stefeni mengoffer diri.. tp TANAK.. aku nk perempuan please.. ade tak sesape yg suke travel²? wa bajet nk pg kelantan n terengganu la by this june or july.. before the monsun season la.. wa mau layan pulau!!!
criteria awek² yg nak join :
1. org yg pernah ku kenal
2. buleh dipercayai + jujur
3. buas (suke ektiviti lasak seperti nek beskal pi merayau on the island or naik jetski or layan snuker dlm air)
4. gile² (seperti suke karaoke sampai saket tekak)
5. suke diambil gambarnye (sbb wa suke amik gamba)
6. open minded
7. sempoi (tak cerewet in makan or tempat landing)
8. ade bajet (yg ni plg penting.. suppose letak kat no 1 la..)
tapi if ade yg nk membawa kaum yg lagi satu.. wa tadahal.. make sure criteria tetap ditepati la.. n one more.. trip ini utk rase gembira hey.. so.. wa tanak ade sekelumit rase tak best diakhir rancangan.. haha.. poyos je.. so.. nk pg kelantan sbb nk pg umah chipah.. then ajak die lepak terengganu kt pulau perhentian.. hahaha! kalu 3-4 org pun dah best.. hihihi.. seronok.. dah ajak sue.. tapi.. entah..
tapi wa mmg nak PEGI!!! dah start kompol asset dah ni.. ahhahaha.. ajak si kapel yg baru kawen ok gak tuh.. leh la dorg honeymoon.. n dorg pun aku rase jenis yg sempoi n lasak.. haha.. will ask them la.. hurm.. asik!
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